my self harm story

[alexa951]

When I was about 7 I had a boyfreind who I loved so much, but then I cheated on him with another young boy. They were both so gorgeous and kind to me but they moved away and ever since my life has been in shreds. I started cutting a while back and now I can't stop! I use a razor I can't control it even though it hurts and bleeds a lot. I always do it in the same place. I do it when I miss them a lot, when someone hurts me and when I want to die most of all I can't explain what goes through my mind I just cry and cut and cry and cut. I even do it if I'm just lay thinking and I think of all I've done wrong. I feel ill afterwards. I lose lots of blood which I need because of anaemia and I shake and it throbs all the way up my leg. I hate myself I hate all of it and I don't know my own self I don't know what I'm capable of it keeps me awake at night because I'm frightened.
Please will someone help me out of this :(

[PinkFloyd]

Just know that there are other guys you can date that would be great for you. as for the self harming i think that if you havent already you should tell someone yo trust a lot like your parents, a teacher, a coatch. they are all good people that are willing to help.

[xaydavis]

U did the right thing talking to us out here as a matter of fact u can find another guy but try being more confident start saying things that raise ur spirits. All the time ppl try to bully me i warn them cause im confident i have thought about cutting but then i say im better than that im awesome no matter what this pysocologicly world throws at me or you . You can do it but we cant be the only ones who say it say this to yourself.