TeamCrossCountry
November 3rd, 2012, 04:57 PM
Ok, so I have this crush? Not sure if thats the right word for it... Anyway, I've had this crush ever since my freshman year on a girl I know and I know she used to like me in my freshman year as well. I had just moved my 8th grade year, and she went to my new church, but was actually attracted to someone else at first. Once I got to know her though, I really really liked her (around the same time as my freshman year) and have never really had eyes for actually going out for anyone else since then (I'm a Junior now). I would look at other people, as everyone does, but she was the only one I ever really wanted to go out with. I put off asking her out though until she was 16 (her parents and my parents rules, stupid I know) and so it became kind of unclear my sophomore year whether she liked me or not. I found out though that I would be moving the June after my sophomore year, a month after her 16th birthday, so when her birthday finally came around I was kind of unsure of how to ask her out, and I really didn't want to hurt someone by going out with them for only a month but I still tried and kind of screwed it up. (She had a couple of relationships for l about a week or two after I left, but nothing since then, I was unsure of where to fit this in the story) I hadn't talked to her again up until a few weeks ago though, but ever since we have been texting all the time including goodnight and good morning texts. Her friend got ahold of her phone one day and said I should marry her (joking (I think), but meaning I should really have a serious relationship though since she really cares about me) and later when texting the girl again, I found out that her friend told her we'd be perfect together, and she said she was probably right so I agreed with her. (I really did agree, as I still feel the same about her today, and we actually do fit together better than anyone I have ever met, and I have lived all over the country in 6 different places so far and I'm only 16 almost 17, 4 in the last 5 years, so it's not like I've been going through the same people all my life, I actually have met and made friends with tons of other people, including some really good friends that were girls). Here is the major Dilemma though - She lives on the east coast and I live on the west coast, over 2000 miles away. (We both live in the USA) I have a college I really want to go to here out west, as it offers me the best program for the major I want to go into, I have a bunch of friends going there, and it is by far the most affordable for me since I have to pay entirely for my own college without help. She would want to go to the same college I am going to, and her mom is actually an alumni from there, but the colleges in state for offer better programs for her major and also free in-state tuition to her, so she will probably end up going there. On top of that, I will be spending a large amount of my own money (up to $10,000) to spend 2 years sharing my church's gospel overseas (Not going to sway on that, I'm doing it) either right after I graduate high school or after 1 year of college so that is another two years of not seeing her added on to everything.
-Anybody want to share their thoughts, or give advice on what I should do? I'm being completely serious and everything above is absolutely true, so only serious comments please. Thank you :)
-Anybody want to share their thoughts, or give advice on what I should do? I'm being completely serious and everything above is absolutely true, so only serious comments please. Thank you :)