is what i am doing right?

[ackmedsgirl666]

weight 230 pounds(last i weight myself a few weeks ago)
i am 19 years old and severely overweight
i am so disgusted with myself but at the same time i just dont give a damn anymore. i know weight is an issue on my dads side.. were all big boned. he was 250 pounds when he was 16.
i love my body, my boyfriend loves my body. i have nice curves and what not im just disgusted with my stretch marks, my breast size... and when i go to walmart i have to skip past the teen section and go right to the fat ladys section. i do eat alot i guess... and since i have moved out on my own ive become less active. the only activity i get is maybe a walk once a week and daily sex but that doesnt help because i have performance issues and im always on the bottom.
when someone offers me a 2nd serving of food i take it
every chance im offered mcdonalds i take it and whenver i go there i get big mac sandwhiches.
im just so fed up with my body.. and the way i eat but i just cant stop
i love junk food and meat... i am a big meat eater...
i love greasy stuff... what can i do
im hungry all the time... and i eat.....
i can never go an hour let alone 5 minutes without food in my mouth
in the middle of the night i get hungry and i eat like abowl of cereal then go back to bed... i know its mainly me being active that contributes to my weight gain but i just cant seem to motivate myself to go out and walk and get excersize. its getting cold where i live and all i wanna do is sleep and keep warm and be lazy...

i need somebody to help me get back on track before i become A FAT MESS!
i want my strecth marks gone.. i wanna lose atleast 100 pounds...... i wanna be able to feel comfortable standing infront of my boyfriend naked

thanks!
signed: desperately fat wanna lose weight girl

[Mortal Coil]

It sounds like you might have a food addiction or compulsive over-eating disorder. I'd recommend seeing a doctor about this. Hopefully you can be referred to a nutritionist who will put you on a meal plan. This will help you lose weight and recover. Good luck! :hug:

[ackmedsgirl666]

It sounds like you might have a food addiction or compulsive over-eating disorder. I'd recommend seeing a doctor about this. Hopefully you can be referred to a nutritionist who will put you on a meal plan. This will help you lose weight and recover. Good luck! :hug:

thanks this helps alot
im trying to work on finding a doctor that can refer me to a specialist or something..... i wanna be what i was before.....
not this big hideous blob i see in the mirror

[Noirtier]

Hun, first of all I want you to know that you're not alone. A lot of people, especially in western society, have this same problem. They overeat, they don't exercise like they should, and it just adds up over time. It's a hard thing--I've seen my mom and several other members of my family go through it, and they're still going through it. What happens is you develop almost an overdependency on food. It becomes you comfort, the thing you go to to make you feel better. And while that's not healthy, it's something that you don't notice until it's gone too far. The first thing you should do, like Alex said, is go see a doctor and see if they can't get you with a specialist to help you through this. Losing weight like this is a hard thing, I know it is. But if you're really committed to it, the specialist will help you in any and every way that they can. They will help you get on a diet plan and an exercise plan, as well as getting with you on a regular basis to help encourage you. I would also talk to your boyfriend about this and seeing if there are any ways that he can help if you decide to do something the specialist recommends. And no matter what happens, know that all of us are here for you hun, and we care about you! :hug:

[ackmedsgirl666]

Hun, first of all I want you to know that you're not alone. A lot of people, especially in western society, have this same problem. They overeat, they don't exercise like they should, and it just adds up over time. It's a hard thing--I've seen my mom and several other members of my family go through it, and they're still going through it. What happens is you develop almost an overdependency on food. It becomes you comfort, the thing you go to to make you feel better. And while that's not healthy, it's something that you don't notice until it's gone too far. The first thing you should do, like Alex said, is go see a doctor and see if they can't get you with a specialist to help you through this. Losing weight like this is a hard thing, I know it is. But if you're really committed to it, the specialist will help you in any and every way that they can. They will help you get on a diet plan and an exercise plan, as well as getting with you on a regular basis to help encourage you. I would also talk to your boyfriend about this and seeing if there are any ways that he can help if you decide to do something the specialist recommends. And no matter what happens, know that all of us are here for you hun, and we care about you! :hug:

thanks nortier for your thoughtful and helpful advice
im trying ton decide whats best for my help
i dont wanna end up like those people on tv who end up bed ridden and have to undergo lipo-suction which i knoe is not covered through ohip here in canada. i dont want it to ever get to that
when i look back to my old photos from a year ago i was a nice size
i was slightly overweight but i still looked good
i was extremly active back then. i still ate junk food but not as much and i burned it all off. my ex kept me on my feet 24/7
excersizing, walking around, running around you name it
i live in a city where there is nothing to do. i cant afford a gym membership but if i could i would get one....
i wanna see myself living a long healthy life not with diabetes or heart problems etc.

[Haydenn3]

TBH its your body you dont have to stop unless your going to die if you and your bf like your body then fuck the world