i am an abusive unstable wreck

[ackmedsgirl666]

Omg i am so fed up with myself!!!!!!
I have become so emotionally unstable.... I am depressed all the time...... I get pissed off easily... And lately ive been snapping at my boyfriend and either punching, kicking, slapping, smacking etc anything to give my boyfriend pain..
When i am depressed i eat and i tend to eat alot...
Then when i feel fat and disgusted with myself i complain.. My boyfriend gets pissed and says he doesnt wanna hear it and i get pissed when he doesnt give a shit and i hurt him...

Why am i hurting him. Whats wrong with me... What can i do
i love him and i dont wanna hurt him to a point he calls the cops and gets a restraining order and leaves me...

Do i need help and if so where can i get it??

[HandheldOutlaw]

I am happy you've identified your behavior and wish to change. That takes real courage.
Please do go seek help; talk to a trusted adult-- maybe a school counselor?
Keep your head up lovely

[ackmedsgirl666]

I am happy you've identified your behavior and wish to change. That takes real courage.
Please do go seek help; talk to a trusted adult-- maybe a school counselor?
Keep your head up lovely


thanks so much
i am just praying for an end to my unexplainable behaviour
i dont wanna hurt him anymore or myself

[ackmedslayer556]

your not going to push me away dear. and i wish u should have come to me about this first before going on here. but now that we both now the problem we will work together to fix it.

[ackmedsgirl666]

your not going to push me away dear. and i wish u should have come to me about this first before going on here. but now that we both now the problem we will work together to fix it.

Thanks for the support but you know the only reason i turn here for advice is so i know how to better handle the situation before approaching you
I don't want to say or do something that permanently leaves you hurting

[Mirage]

Omg i am so fed up with myself!!!!!!
I have become so emotionally unstable.... I am depressed all the time...... I get pissed off easily... And lately ive been snapping at my boyfriend and either punching, kicking, slapping, smacking etc anything to give my boyfriend pain..
When i am depressed i eat and i tend to eat alot...
Then when i feel fat and disgusted with myself i complain.. My boyfriend gets pissed and says he doesnt wanna hear it and i get pissed when he doesnt give a shit and i hurt him...

Why am i hurting him. Whats wrong with me... What can i do
i love him and i dont wanna hurt him to a point he calls the cops and gets a restraining order and leaves me...

Do i need help and if so where can i get it??

A school counselor may be a good start. If they find your case serious enough they may refer you to a professional who could help you solve this, once and for all.

[ackmedsgirl666]

A school counselor may be a good start. If they find your case serious enough they may refer you to a professional who could help you solve this, once and for all.

thanks so much masked
i have been talking to my mom and shes gonna help me possibly get referrred to her psychiatrist to see if i can possible identify if i have depression or what not.