Extreme586
November 1st, 2012, 09:28 PM
So today I was in a pretty good mood, had talks with people I hadn't talked to in forever and just let go of all the worry I had for a short amount of time at school. Its like I came out of a trance that I have been in for a long time, losing friendships from just plane ignoring everyone. Then I see a boy I really care for who was very nice to me and always made me laugh in a class we had together freshman year, even when I was dealing with myself back then. I'm a junior in high school now.
I have a few classes that are right next to his so I see him during passing periods for a brief few moments, even though we don't talk to each other. My heart aches for him every time I see or pass him in the hallways and my mind fly's to a bad place. I'm happy for those few seconds and then I remember I can never have him and it makes me so unsocial just because I become lost receding deeper and deeper into my myself.
So I started making a plan today to take different routes in school to avoid him completely. I love him very much but it hurts to see him, I figure avoiding him will eventually dull the pain so I can heal and hopefully recreate my social life and get some friends to have fun with. Does this sound like the right thing to do?
I have a few classes that are right next to his so I see him during passing periods for a brief few moments, even though we don't talk to each other. My heart aches for him every time I see or pass him in the hallways and my mind fly's to a bad place. I'm happy for those few seconds and then I remember I can never have him and it makes me so unsocial just because I become lost receding deeper and deeper into my myself.
So I started making a plan today to take different routes in school to avoid him completely. I love him very much but it hurts to see him, I figure avoiding him will eventually dull the pain so I can heal and hopefully recreate my social life and get some friends to have fun with. Does this sound like the right thing to do?