Never going to recover

[Magenta]

I tried, I did. I don't know anymore. Cutting had lost its appeal. Well, I thought it did. Then I decided to cut up my thighs this week. Now it's all I want. But I can't cut on my arms or my legs because I don't have the motivation to go to the trouble to hide it. But I just want to. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm never going to get over this. Nothing is a trigger but I do it anyway.

I literally just want to cut for the heck of it. Because I'm depressed and always will be. Because I'm "sick" as my mother so kindly puts it. Her "sick" daughter. Her sick daughter that slices her skin. Why can't I just be normal?

[-]Look I'm making useless threads again. God, just ignore this I should never have come back to disgrace this site with my presence.[/-]

Those who know me know how long I've been struggling and how much I have to deal with. It's too much. I have to cut. I don't know what to do anymore.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

I tried, I did. I don't know anymore. Cutting had lost its appeal. Well, I thought it did. Then I decided to cut up my thighs this week. Now it's all I want. But I can't cut on my arms or my legs because I don't have the motivation to go to the trouble to hide it. But I just want to. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm never going to get over this. Nothing is a trigger but I do it anyway.

I literally just want to cut for the heck of it. Because I'm depressed and always will be. Because I'm "sick" as my mother so kindly puts it. Her "sick" daughter. Her sick daughter that slices her skin. Why can't I just be normal?

[-]Look I'm making useless threads again. God, just ignore this I should never have come back to disgrace this site with my presence.[/-]

Those who know me know how long I've been struggling and how much I have to deal with. It's too much. I have to cut. I don't know what to do anymore.

Jo... Im not to sure what to say. Coming from a cutter to another... I know how you feel about this and well it hurts. I really do and did ask my self the same question too, I still freaking do! Just stay strong and hold in there is what I can tell you. We are all wiling to help you here, you arent gonna bug anyone. I really hate having to see others go through this, just be strong.