Help?

[HandheldOutlaw]

Not sure if this is ok to post, but need advice so i will not go into much detail.
How deep does a wound need to be to require stitches?

[Φρανκομβριτ]

If you're asking that question, you need to go to a hospital. Now.

[HandheldOutlaw]

I don't want to waste their time.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

You are never a waste of time. If you are concerned about the depth of a cut, regardless of the reason it's there or actual depth, it needs to be looked at. A waste of the hospital's time are people that get drunk and take up a bed that someone who actually needs help, like you, need.

GO! NOW!

[HandheldOutlaw]

It was dumb to ask.
Thx for the advice :)
But it would be a waste. It doesn't matter i dont matter
Such a waste of space

[Φρανκομβριτ]

That attitude wont fly with me missy.

I know what it's like to be a waste of space.

I know what it's like to be a waste of the hospital's space. After 5 days of being in the ER after trying to kill myself the released me so they could free up the bed.

Your problem could be taken care of in a snap. Maybe not even stitches, you might be able to have it glued shut. I had cuts on my wrist glued and they heal great.

GO!

[HandheldOutlaw]

I can't wake my family
omg i can't do this

[Φρανκομβριτ]

You can do ANYTHING you choose to.

If you feel you can't wake them, call an ambulance.

Your health & safety is & 1, and I'll never let you live it down if you don't do this ;)

I had to wake my mum at 3 a.m. once to tell her I was getting on a plane in 3 hours to come out to live with a former member of this site. If I can do that, you can get through this.

[HandheldOutlaw]

I'm scared
they'll be upset.
The kids are sleeping
I should be asleep
Not awake and a complete worthless mess

I'll go. :/

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Life is scary! Consequences for our actions are scary! You seem very adult. It's time to take adult actions!

People get upset. Hell, they may not even ever understand! Should you give a shit? Fuck no! You need to take care of YOUR needs.

I'm sure deep down, they would want to know when you're in need of help. Even if they don't, it doesn't matter. You're in a time of need, and those doctors at that hospital can help you better than anyone else can. Even if the major problem isn't physical.

GO! NOW!

[HandheldOutlaw]

Thank you. :/ I'll go

Just ....
:/ kinda nervous
Stay + chat plz? I'm on here on my phone.
I'm scared as hell
Srry 4 asking

[HandheldOutlaw]

I can't

[Φρανκομβριτ]

No need to thank me! Thank you for making the right choice and having the confidence to help yourself! This is one of the biggest steps you'll ever make!

I'm still here, and I'm not the only one you can chat to (though I'm more than willing to help!) Feel free to PM me if need be. Good luck! Keep us posted!

YOU CAN! DON'T GIVE ME THAT SHIT!!

[HandheldOutlaw]

I'm probably just paranoid
I'm pregnant
I haven't (and i wont) told my family
I doubt they would test me

Right?
Because this is unrelated?

[Φρανκομβριτ]

I'm paranoid. What's you point?

That's a very big issue. Almost impossible to deal with on your own. There is help for you other than your family. The doctors can tell you about your options, regardless on your opinion on the subject.

It is their duty to test you. By law.

I don't think this is unrelated. Possibly slightly, but it's sounding more and more to me like you're going through a mental crisis and for that, you may need some serious help. Mine have led to suicide attempts more than I care to count. You really need to reach out before it's too late. No matter how upset someone may get, it cannot combat how grief-ridden they would be to lose you.

GO! NOW! (I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU'RE EVEN STILL HERE, YOU SHOULD BE IN ER)

[HandheldOutlaw]

I don't even care anymore tbh.
I want to die
I'm sorry for wasting your time
Thank you for talking
I'll go. Waking up my uncle in a bit
After i clean up some

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Join the club.

You've only wasted my time if you allow yourself to fall in to this shit. You know you're better than it, and you know you have the power to fight it.

Do what you will. I've tried my best, and I haven't/ am not going anywhere.

If you have a serious problem, you should get serious help. It took my attempt to get me in to a treatment programme.

You are the only one that can help yourself right now. We're just crutches to help you along

[HandheldOutlaw]

Cleaned up
Asking now.
May I pm you later?
Like when all this is through?
I'm sorry for all you've been through.
Thank you for helping me out.
Going now
( for real this time)

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Cleaned up
Asking now.
May I pm you later?
Like when all this is through?
I'm sorry for all you've been through.
Thank you for helping me out.
Going now
( for real this time)

You're awesome! Good for you!

PM me as much as you like. I do work, and I do need sleep occasionally, so I may not respond immediately, but it doesn't mean I don't care! I'll get back to you as soon as I log on. I'll make sure to log on throughout the day tomorrow as much as possible.

You're welcome, but remember, I haven't really done anything. I've just encouraged you to do all the work for me :)

Good luck!

EDIT:

Just a final thought before I go to bed:

No matter what the doctors say, don't let them make you feel unimportant.

They deal with people dying on a daily basis. They are extremely cold, and can be incredibly rude and ununderstanding (I don't think that's even a word, but you get my point)

What I'm getting at is that they may not give you the attention you need, only what's required by the state. It's your job to bug the shit out of them and ensure you are getting the help you need. No one knows you better than you. Tell them everything, and make it clear that you need help, even if you don't know exactly what help you need.

When I went in to the hospital after having a psychotic break and completely losing my grip on reality, I was brought in to an examining room where an old man was being wheeled out (very slowly I might add) in front of me. They really didn't care about what was going on in my head at all because the man in front of me was VISIBLY injured. I later watched that man die across the hall from me, but the point remains, if they can't see it, they don't know it's there. Don't be discouraged by their lack of care

[HandheldOutlaw]

Believe me, I understand not having your whole life to devote to pming. Don't worry
I have school (day school + three college classes + 2 night courses) and sleep is nice :3
I don't get to see much sleep because i have ptsd. Bleh

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Believe me, I understand not having your whole life to devote to pming. Don't worry
I have school (day school + three college classes + 2 night courses) and sleep is nice :3
I don't get to see much sleep because i have ptsd. Bleh

Sounds like you're more busy than I am these days! My only major time consumer for this week anyways is snow shovelling.

With combined therapy and certain medications, you be able to find a way to lull you to sleep. I've found mine, though I wouldn't recommend it to anyone.

[HandheldOutlaw]

Haha, it doesn't snow here. :(
I am incredibly busy. It's so stressful. All my day classes are also college level. So it's like...major overload. I'm managing, albeit barely

Sleep kind of scares me... i can fall asleep pretty easily but i opt out because the nightmares are too much most nights

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You have no idea how lucky you are not to have to deal with snow!

Busy can be very good. Doesn't give the mind time to wander!

I know someone very similar to your position. J'ai la chance that I forget my dreams after I wake up!

[HandheldOutlaw]

Oui, tu es de la chance. :/
Je ne peux pas oublier. (Ça, c'est correcte?)

Whoever this person is, I feel deeply for them. It's no fun at all. And i hope things improve for them :/

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Oui, tu es de la chance. :/
Je ne peux pas oublier. (Ça, c'est correcte?)

Whoever this person is, I feel deeply for them. It's no fun at all. And i hope things improve for them :/

You do not want to forget?

ça c'est quoi tu me dirai

[HandheldOutlaw]

Ahh damn. See? Utterly hopeless. :p Je veux oublier.
I was going to to say don't want to remember. But changed my mind last minute

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Lol you got it. But trust me, you don't. It's incredibly frustrating to have the same memory as your father with brain damage and your grandfather with dimentia.