I feel so alone

[bloodshot_eyes]

Lately I've been depressed. I've had it before, but I would always numb myself with drugs to just be able to forget the pain I've had. I became clean and my depression has gotten the best of me, I have constant suicidal thoughts. Even tried to commit suicide. I just need someone to talk to, someone that would understand what I'm going through. I don't know what to do, I feel so hopeless...

[Noirtier]

I know how you feel hun. I've struggled with depression a lot in the past, and I've done things I probably shouldn't have to try and get through the pain. Loneliness is still a big part of how I feel most days. But I've found people, especially here, who have supported me and helped me through it. VT is here for you too, and a lot of us have been through similar things. If you ever need to talk, there are plenty of us here who would be more than willing to. :hug3: It's really great that you've gotten clean! We're here to help in whatever way we can.

[SilentCutter]

Im sorry you've been so depressed. And you're not alone. We're all here for you. I've suffered from depression, I even cut myself. Still trying to get over it, but I'm doing better. I've tried to kill myself many times. I know where you're coming from. It sucks when you don't have someone you can go and talk to and know they'll understand and won't judge. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. I know you don't know me, but I care.

[ackmedsgirl666]

im here to talk to if you need some sort of advice
i myself suffer from depression and i hate it.... what gets me by:
talking to my boyfriend. he makes me feel better and helps me understand things

[bloodshot_eyes]

Thank you, the both of you, it means alot to be heard. I just need someone I can talk to. And if either one of you need anyone to talk to about anything feel free to message me, please. I know we don't really know each other but the thought of knowing that people are willing to talk to you makes it all the better.
It got worst for me, I got out of a relationship and she knew that I really fell hard for her. Now every time I see her, she starts flirting with guys. I've had such an urge to cut myself... I want to so bad. I hate feeling so hopeless. I honestly just feel numb.

[SilentCutter]

Dont cut, I know its hard but you can do it :) dont give her the satisfaction. You seem like a great guy, and honestly its her loss. I know its hard to get over someone you fell for, but its possible. I fell in love with an ok guy. But he turned into a real jerk but I still stayed. I felt like crap. But because of that relationship I know my future ones will be stronger and I will too. Youre a strong person, so you have the strength to get through this. Always remember you have people who will be there for you, like me :)

[bloodshot_eyes]

Thank you, it really means alot to me :) my problem is that I get so frustrated and angry because I don't know what to feel so I eventually end up emotionless. There's numerous holes in my wall which I punched out of frustration and hatred of my life

[SilentCutter]

Instead of punching the wall because thats just hurting you physically, how about talking out all your feelings to someone who will listen? Even if you don't know EXACTLY what youre feeling sometimes just talking would help.

[bloodshot_eyes]

Because no one will listen. I keep everything to myself because I have no one that I can actually talk to about how I feel.

[SilentCutter]

Ill listen to whatever you have to say. Im a very good listener:) and a good friend.

[bloodshot_eyes]

Likewise :)
Honestly if there's anything you need to talk to about anything, you can come to me, I'll be there for you when you need someone

[SilentCutter]

:) thank you ill take you up on that.

[bloodshot_eyes]

Anytime at all :)

[laylaseidel]

Cheer up!!! You got all the means to get yourself back on track. BTW what made you feel that way? You can try to make new friends and socialize. :) Listen to music like the ones from this http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/isochronic-tones/id496874615 which can be very relaxing and have a blast about life.

[bloodshot_eyes]

Just problems that kept adding up and also not being able to express what I feel.

[Pierce]

I never tried to commit suicide but I have gone through serious depression and breakdowns. Also at times I would wish I was dead. Send me a message if you ever need to talk.

[CaliKid24]

You can ALWAYS talk to me about anything :)