trying to move on....

[Wintergirl_80.0]

Its been almost a year now and i still havent managed to forget or let go. I love him so much. he was my first love. I thought he loved me. I thought he would change with time but he never did. He only abused me and used me and I loved him despite of it. and the worst part, the sick truth is I would go back to him in a heart beat. even though I know it would have the same result. If I didnt go back I would always wonder "what if". what if he has changed? what if it will be different this time? what if we could be in love like we were when we first met? but he wont come back and i cant seem to forget and move on. and it hurts so much because I want more than anything to love with out being so scared and with out wishing things had been differently with him........

[Mohamed]

Hi , I think you're going through a hard time thinking about all tht stuff , and I think you still love him because he probably understanded you like nobody did , made you feel safe like noone ever did ! I had a similar experiment before but not abusing but using me ! without getting in details I think the best you can do now is nothing ! don't try not to think about him ! don't try to forget it about him ! just don't do anything about it ! I did that and I totally forgot it .... just repeat to yourself I am much better now without him whenever you remember him . repeat it though I know you don't and you think you won't mean it !! but from my experience you will ! take care buddy .. I hope you the best Mika :)

[Dawn01]

Hey... We are on a similar situation, despite that in my case was a friend/lovers confusion :/

Your relationship wasn't healthy, this guy made you feel real bad, he wasn't good for you, and you do deserve someone good to you, because you deserve to be happy :) You should try to forget him, to date other people, to move on, YOU CAN DO THIS!! You are a girl, and we girls are strong, we don't need abusive boys!

I wish you the best, and I hope that you'll find someone better very soon ^^

[Wintergirl_80.0]

thank you

[Texas warrior]

I know how you feel, I just got out of a abusive relationship in July. And I am still as fucked up as fucked up can be. We will get over it, eventually. It just takes time,

[Wintergirl_80.0]

yeah i know im just so tired of it

[Wintergirl_80.0]

like why do i fall for people who hurt me and dont care?

[Dawn01]

like why do i fall for people who hurt me and dont care?

It happens, you are not the only one... You should try to love yourself more, because like I said, you deserve to be with someone who is good to you! :yes:

[Wintergirl_80.0]

yeah...