I can't but I can...

[Avenida105]

I have I would say sudden emotion changes but I don't think they are hormonal, but I'm pretty sure I'm not bipolar. So the thing is that in general in school, and in cross country I know I can achieve great things, but I just think I'm not going to be able to do them. It sounds stupid but its a feeling that chases me every day, for moments I'm full of hope because I'm getting better, but I feel like it will never be good enough, and I'm afraid of failing. I can get good grades, but I'm still afraid that in the end I won't make it into a good college, and I've been improving so much in running but I'm afraid that it won't be good enough to get into varsity next year. In general I have seen my self do things but I just don't think its possible, I mean I look at myself and I feel like shit, and I see how easy things come to others like they were just born with it. Like this kid, he is good looking, he gets excellent grades in AP us history, and I'm sure he does in other class, and he is great in XC, so great that he was injured and didn't run for a year, and he comes back and he is still in the top 15 people. Sometimes I wish I would have been born different. I don't know If anybody feels like this, I really wish I could get some advice

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Lots of us feel this way. Don't worry, you're not alone.

Sounds like some anxiety laying deep down in you feeding in to your self doubt. What's very important is you're able to acknowledge that you ARE able to achieve things. Maybe you're setting unrealistic goals for yourself?

Sit back and look at your life in the third person. If you compare yourself to a lot of people in your age bracket, you're doing well. You might just need a little reassurance.

Consider speaking to your doctor or a counsellor on a regular basis to try and determine what you can do to build your confidence up and give yourself the recognition you deserve.

[ackmedsgirl666]

im the same.. go from happy to miserable or wake up miserable and domnt know why. i wake up that way and stay that way all day. if your very concerned seek councelling