Boy I saw today.

[Pierce]

So i've had a major crush on this boy for a very long time. His name is Connor. All throughout high school I think i've had a major crush on him. Anyway we've been in a few classes together and since i can make people laugh fairly easy that was the way i planned on becoming friends with him. But hes pretty flamboyant or feminine and since I am in the closet extremly flamboyant guys make me feel so uncomfortable. I think it's because im jealous or something but idk. Anyway i joked aound a lot in that class last year and made him laugh. Today i was walking home from school (I live close to school and it was near my house) and outside I saw Connor walking adjacent to me. I haven't seen him for a while. I'm not sure if he knows my name but he knows me. I walked by staring at him really admiring him but schockingly he looked back and i felt like i was caught doing something I wasn't supposed to. I kinda nodded my head as a "whats up" gesture and he half smiled and kind of nodded his head but it was so awkward. I can't explain it. He like stopped and continued nodding his head at like 3 points but it was just one nod. The whole walk home i was thinking it over and over again thinking "Did i look like a creep", "Does he know i'm head over heels for him". And i'm sorry this post is so long and speling and grammar is probably incorrect and im not even sure what responses i expect to get but i kind of just needed to talk about it. The song "Creep" by Radiohead is the way i feel about him except the part where i wish I was special cause i kinda know im special enough already lol. And sorry for no paragraphs.

[KarkatLuv]

Is he nice? Does he seem like the kind of guy that would gossip any/everything you say to him? Because if not just get him alone somehow as tell him your feelings, ask him not to tell anyone because you're still in the closet.

[Pierce]

Is he nice? Does he seem like the kind of guy that would gossip any/everything you say to him? Because if not just get him alone somehow as tell him your feelings, ask him not to tell anyone because you're still in the closet.

Thanks for the feedback but that wouldn't work and I would never even dream of doing that because i don't have the "balls" to do it lol. I'm friends with all of his friends and I just simply could never do that. I do think I'm going to try to space myself between me and him as much as possible though.

[huntersteele11]

i never dated anybody b4 but if you like him why would you space yourself from him because i dont understand. you said your all crushed out on him so mabe he is crushed out on you 2 but is shy or afraid just like you. mabe if you stay close the wall will come down

[TaylrJ]

Your like me, you gain new friends with humor. EXACTLY what I do. If you want to start anything with him I think you need to take your time with it. Just stop obsessing like you are. I know you can't help it but don't let it get to you like that. Just be chill about it. Me and my friend are real close and it is because I had a feeling he was gay and wanted to be friends with him. I did what you did with the humor thing. We laugh over so many inside jokes and this has been continuing for 2 months now. Our relationship is still strong and it is never boring. It isn't all laughing either. I have opened up to him a few times about certain things and he has done the same to me.

I say you do the same. If you ever get embarrassed like that again and become uncomfortable then just make it look like a joke and laugh over it. Relate to him with some things. This is what I do, I let things slowly progress. Because the longer it takes to build up, the longer it will last.

Also, don't cross the line with love. You are "falling head over heels" for him and you don't even know him yet. I try my best not to get my hopes up and obsess over them unless if I know FOR SURE if they love me back. That's a mistake I made. It will end up making you jealous and you'll most likely get depressed. Don't get your hopes up and care about someone so much if your not even sure if they wanna be friends with you yet.

[Pierce]

Your like me, you gain new friends with humor. EXACTLY what I do. If you want to start anything with him I think you need to take your time with it. Just stop obsessing like you are. I know you can't help it but don't let it get to you like that. Just be chill about it. Me and my friend are real close and it is because I had a feeling he was gay and wanted to be friends with him. I did what you did with the humor thing. We laugh over so many inside jokes and this has been continuing for 2 months now. Our relationship is still strong and it is never boring. It isn't all laughing either. I have opened up to him a few times about certain things and he has done the same to me.

I say you do the same. If you ever get embarrassed like that again and become uncomfortable then just make it look like a joke and laugh over it. Relate to him with some things. This is what I do, I let things slowly progress. Because the longer it takes to build up, the longer it will last.

Also, don't cross the line with love. You are "falling head over heels" for him and you don't even know him yet. I try my best not to get my hopes up and obsess over them unless if I know FOR SURE if they love me back. That's a mistake I made. It will end up making you jealous and you'll most likely get depressed. Don't get your hopes up and care about someone so much if your not even sure if they wanna be friends with you yet.

Thanks!

[TaylrJ]

Welcome, if you need anymore help let me know.