Hopeless Soul
October 25th, 2012, 04:37 PM
Hello whoever is reading this.
I'm writing this because I can't take it anymore, so I'm just going to write what I feel and we'll see what makes of this.
So let's start.
Ever since I can remember I always knew there was something wrong with my brain. It's different then everyone elses.
My mother educated me on mental illnesses but I can't be diagnosed with one.
I recently learned depression runs in my family, no surprise.
I have a terrible life. I wake up in the morning feeling like shit, because I know my life is the same boring thing everyday.
I think about suicide everyday, I just want this to stop.
There is one good thing in my life. My girlfriend.
We've been dating for close to 7 months and I can say I'm inlove with her.
We fight a lot. I'm the type of person who worries, a lot. I constantly worry about her, I think the main reason for this is 5 months ago my girlfriend cheated on me while she was drunk.
It haunts me and I think it always will, it makes me want to throw up everytime I think about it. Is she good for me or not? Are we going to be together forever? I can't imagine being with anyone else.
Recently, it's all been coming down on me.
I no longer want to live another day on earth because everyday is a struggle.
School is stressful, the future is scary, and I constantly worry.
I want to die.
Someone please help.
I'm writing this because I can't take it anymore, so I'm just going to write what I feel and we'll see what makes of this.
So let's start.
Ever since I can remember I always knew there was something wrong with my brain. It's different then everyone elses.
My mother educated me on mental illnesses but I can't be diagnosed with one.
I recently learned depression runs in my family, no surprise.
I have a terrible life. I wake up in the morning feeling like shit, because I know my life is the same boring thing everyday.
I think about suicide everyday, I just want this to stop.
There is one good thing in my life. My girlfriend.
We've been dating for close to 7 months and I can say I'm inlove with her.
We fight a lot. I'm the type of person who worries, a lot. I constantly worry about her, I think the main reason for this is 5 months ago my girlfriend cheated on me while she was drunk.
It haunts me and I think it always will, it makes me want to throw up everytime I think about it. Is she good for me or not? Are we going to be together forever? I can't imagine being with anyone else.
Recently, it's all been coming down on me.
I no longer want to live another day on earth because everyday is a struggle.
School is stressful, the future is scary, and I constantly worry.
I want to die.
Someone please help.