Just faking it!

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

So much of the time now I just act happy... Im so freaking far of being it but me acting happy to keep others happy I feel like a huge lie. I feel wrong doing it and I dont know what to do at all... The stupid thing about the meds is being put off more and more and well nothings getting better here! Id love to cut, but I cant do that!

[Noirtier]

I know exactly how you feel hun. You put on a charade--a facade--of the "happy" you in order to seem like everything is ok so that others don't worry about you. You want them to be happy; you don't want to be a reason that makes them unhappy by burdening them. First let me say that with the meds, you have to give them time to get into your system--it can take a couple of weeks for them to really start working. Don't give up on them yet. And you know that cutting won't make it better. It'll just make you fall back into the cycle, and you'll get down on yourself for it. You know that it doesn't make anything better--take if from someone who is recovering himself.. If there's anyone you really trust, though, maybe just tell them a little something. To get it off your chest. And if they truly care about you, they'll do whatever they can to help. I know how it is, trust me. I've been there more than once. If you ever need to talk, you can send me a PM, and we're all here to support you!

[Pierce]

I feel the same way, or at least I used to. I wake up my my happy face one and pretend like nothign is wrong. It hurts so bad to smile when your not happy. I've built a rep to be a happy funny kid at my high school and when im depressed i don't want to put a facade on. Pull through it my friend. Also i take meds for other reasons and it gives me mood swings and i can't control ky anger. Also im almost always angry. So best of luck and pull through it.