Entity1
October 24th, 2012, 04:17 PM
So, i'm a pretty new member here, so here goes my introduction as well as my problem. I'm 16 years old, a nice Indian guy with good grammar (Woah, that's rather unusual, don't you think? Indian people with bad grammar are like, a lot! :P ) , blah, blah, here's the problem (i skipped most part of the introduction, didn't i? :D ).
READ THIS BEFORE READING THE WHOLE THREAD -This is gonna be a pretty big thread, and if you can't read all of it, refer to the TL;DR version at the bottom. I slightly changed some things so people can understand it, as some things are different in India :).
Here's the problem/story - I like to write, so this will feel like a story.
So, i'm like very interested in computers since like a small age. I used to sit on it and do and make new stuff and impress my friends. :D.
Last year, i was in this amazing and pretty high-standard school, i had lots and lots of friends, i had a very good social life, i used to play sports (Was in the soccer team), and pursued my 'hobby', computers as well.
Oh wait, i forgot to tell you, i'm a pretty avid gamer and a reader(i love to read :D), maybe one of these days i'll even post my poem xD.
I've won several gaming competitions and stuff, and if you should know, i used to game around 3 hours a day(or maybe more sometimes).
So last November, i got an amazing idea for a website, which could sell a lot.
I learned some programming languages(I knew some, i learned more), and started working on the website with my friends. There was a big gaming competition coming up in 3 weeks, so i had to gear up for that too, and my exams were like, only 2 months away, so there was a lot of tension and stuff. (Btw i placed 3rd in that gaming competition with my team and got myself a cool $200. :D)
So, i kinda stopped studying to focus on gaming/website. I was kinda leader of both, so i had this responsibility on me. I always used to give my computer stuff more priority than studying or some other stuff, so yeah.
So, i stopped studying, stopped seeing my friends, even skipped school few times, for both of them things.
Blah, blah, fast forward 2-3 weeks, i was staying up late night doing these things.
Fast forward some more, I almost failed in Maths. Almost.
After that, i was to go in 11th grade, my grades weren't that good, they were satisfactory though, along the lines of B in each and A in English :cool:, and i had to change my school as my family was moving.
Fast forward, had summer holidays(I have in May-June), the 2 months, i got interested very much in programming and went into hacking, i was getting like, majorly addicted to these stuff, and as i didn't have any friends in my area, i was mostly alone.
School opens, i make new friends, some of them are just awesome! (Nope, still haven't found friends that share my area of interest (Computer/Programming/Hacking).
July goes by, My computer hours reduce a bit thanks to my new friends,
i start going out some more.
August rolls by, Exams are coming in like 1 month, and i gotta study.
So i start taking some holidays off to study(because basically i've been having all fun in the new school, and yes, i know, i should have studied as well :/).
And yep, you guessed right, i got more into programming/hacking.
Addiction.
Gaining the knowledge.
Addiction to gaining "knowledge". It was all about knowledge. You can find anything on the Internet. Unlimited knowledge is on the Internet. And everyday, i discovered new things. New things that drew myself to them.
I learned new things, i gained knowledge.
September comes, exams! I get C as the total grade. I was sad.
October comes, i start taking more holidays, school starts warning me that i'm taking too many holidays. Still, more hacking/programming.
Btw, i forgot like, the major part of this thing.
I got secluded from my friends during this time(August and September).
They got mixed in the wrong crowds, and i didn't like the new school as well, because the teachers pester me for things and i got irritated(Because i used to stay up late or stay on computers alot, i got "irritated" very much).
I started becoming lonely. In the end, i have now only 2 friends, the others are "fake" friends, can't really trust them for anything.
And now, i'm here, from a guy who's life was amazing and he used to enjoy it to his full, to a guy who got secluded and lonely.
And some more info - I started hating my subjects, i realized every other subject sucked except Computers and English and i didn't want to do them, as it didn't have any role in enhancing my "skills".
I started hating the kids "around this year", i realized they are just butthurts, bullies and backstabbers. Because i was lonely, i lost my "strength" as well. I started getting picked on, being made fun of. Some days ago, a guy was making fun of me, i was irritated, i beat him. (Yes, i'm pretty good at standing up to myself, that's why i didn't usually got bullied/picked on in the other school). And i felt bad about it, i felt bad about beating him. I didn't really give a crap before, but now, i felt bad. I became somewhat emotional.I started hating the kids then. I eventually became a "nice guy".
So that's why i don't want to go to school.
TL;DR - 1. I am interested in Computers, and i don't like studying other subjects because eventually they won't be of use in my higher studies. (In India, there are some "compulsory" subjects, that you have to take, others are optional. ) I don't like the teachers as well, they pester/disturb a lot unlike my previous school ( because it was a big school, the teachers there didn't really give a f**k. Sorry for the swear, i felt like i needed to write it. )
2. I became very lonely, stopped going to school, realized that most of the people are butthurts, bullies, and backstabbers, so i became secluded.
3. I want to pursue in "Computers". But i don't want to go to school.
Is their any other way? And if there is a way, "by changing countries", yes i'll be willing to do that as well, as long as i will gain knowledge and won't go to school.
Btw, i might change schools in the 12th grade(Yes, India has a 12th grade, after which you go to college) so as to get in a better school.
Kudos to people who read it all. I appreciate and applaud you. :D.
READ THIS BEFORE READING THE WHOLE THREAD -This is gonna be a pretty big thread, and if you can't read all of it, refer to the TL;DR version at the bottom. I slightly changed some things so people can understand it, as some things are different in India :).
Here's the problem/story - I like to write, so this will feel like a story.
So, i'm like very interested in computers since like a small age. I used to sit on it and do and make new stuff and impress my friends. :D.
Last year, i was in this amazing and pretty high-standard school, i had lots and lots of friends, i had a very good social life, i used to play sports (Was in the soccer team), and pursued my 'hobby', computers as well.
Oh wait, i forgot to tell you, i'm a pretty avid gamer and a reader(i love to read :D), maybe one of these days i'll even post my poem xD.
I've won several gaming competitions and stuff, and if you should know, i used to game around 3 hours a day(or maybe more sometimes).
So last November, i got an amazing idea for a website, which could sell a lot.
I learned some programming languages(I knew some, i learned more), and started working on the website with my friends. There was a big gaming competition coming up in 3 weeks, so i had to gear up for that too, and my exams were like, only 2 months away, so there was a lot of tension and stuff. (Btw i placed 3rd in that gaming competition with my team and got myself a cool $200. :D)
So, i kinda stopped studying to focus on gaming/website. I was kinda leader of both, so i had this responsibility on me. I always used to give my computer stuff more priority than studying or some other stuff, so yeah.
So, i stopped studying, stopped seeing my friends, even skipped school few times, for both of them things.
Blah, blah, fast forward 2-3 weeks, i was staying up late night doing these things.
Fast forward some more, I almost failed in Maths. Almost.
After that, i was to go in 11th grade, my grades weren't that good, they were satisfactory though, along the lines of B in each and A in English :cool:, and i had to change my school as my family was moving.
Fast forward, had summer holidays(I have in May-June), the 2 months, i got interested very much in programming and went into hacking, i was getting like, majorly addicted to these stuff, and as i didn't have any friends in my area, i was mostly alone.
School opens, i make new friends, some of them are just awesome! (Nope, still haven't found friends that share my area of interest (Computer/Programming/Hacking).
July goes by, My computer hours reduce a bit thanks to my new friends,
i start going out some more.
August rolls by, Exams are coming in like 1 month, and i gotta study.
So i start taking some holidays off to study(because basically i've been having all fun in the new school, and yes, i know, i should have studied as well :/).
And yep, you guessed right, i got more into programming/hacking.
Addiction.
Gaining the knowledge.
Addiction to gaining "knowledge". It was all about knowledge. You can find anything on the Internet. Unlimited knowledge is on the Internet. And everyday, i discovered new things. New things that drew myself to them.
I learned new things, i gained knowledge.
September comes, exams! I get C as the total grade. I was sad.
October comes, i start taking more holidays, school starts warning me that i'm taking too many holidays. Still, more hacking/programming.
Btw, i forgot like, the major part of this thing.
I got secluded from my friends during this time(August and September).
They got mixed in the wrong crowds, and i didn't like the new school as well, because the teachers pester me for things and i got irritated(Because i used to stay up late or stay on computers alot, i got "irritated" very much).
I started becoming lonely. In the end, i have now only 2 friends, the others are "fake" friends, can't really trust them for anything.
And now, i'm here, from a guy who's life was amazing and he used to enjoy it to his full, to a guy who got secluded and lonely.
And some more info - I started hating my subjects, i realized every other subject sucked except Computers and English and i didn't want to do them, as it didn't have any role in enhancing my "skills".
I started hating the kids "around this year", i realized they are just butthurts, bullies and backstabbers. Because i was lonely, i lost my "strength" as well. I started getting picked on, being made fun of. Some days ago, a guy was making fun of me, i was irritated, i beat him. (Yes, i'm pretty good at standing up to myself, that's why i didn't usually got bullied/picked on in the other school). And i felt bad about it, i felt bad about beating him. I didn't really give a crap before, but now, i felt bad. I became somewhat emotional.I started hating the kids then. I eventually became a "nice guy".
So that's why i don't want to go to school.
TL;DR - 1. I am interested in Computers, and i don't like studying other subjects because eventually they won't be of use in my higher studies. (In India, there are some "compulsory" subjects, that you have to take, others are optional. ) I don't like the teachers as well, they pester/disturb a lot unlike my previous school ( because it was a big school, the teachers there didn't really give a f**k. Sorry for the swear, i felt like i needed to write it. )
2. I became very lonely, stopped going to school, realized that most of the people are butthurts, bullies, and backstabbers, so i became secluded.
3. I want to pursue in "Computers". But i don't want to go to school.
Is their any other way? And if there is a way, "by changing countries", yes i'll be willing to do that as well, as long as i will gain knowledge and won't go to school.
Btw, i might change schools in the 12th grade(Yes, India has a 12th grade, after which you go to college) so as to get in a better school.
Kudos to people who read it all. I appreciate and applaud you. :D.