TaylrJ
October 22nd, 2012, 06:58 PM
I am a guy, 15, and bi (closeted). I like this guy who is 14 and I think he is gay. I am not going to go into detail but we have a pretty strong relationship that I think means something more than a friendship. There are plenty of signs of him being gay and it has progressed to the point where we tell each other "I love you". When we do say it though (and do a lot of other gay things to each other), we make it a joke. I think why because if anyone suspects, then we can say we are kidding as a cover up. Well I told him in a text saying "I love you baby", he replied calling me a liar. Well it got me thinking that maybe there isn't anything behind it anymore, there is no more spark to it.
Now what I think is if I told him, and actually meant something behind it. It would make him feel good, then it would mean something again. Because we say it a lot and it is getting old, at least to me. I want it so be special between us whenever I tell him and I want it to be dead serious. How could I tell him though, without it in any way being a joke? Because I can't think off any way to say it differently than the way I do when joking. And by joking, I do mean it. Just like I mentioned earlier, we do it as a cover up. Anyway, I want him to know I ACTUALLY love him instead of just beating around the bush and making it all fun & games. Even if he gets creeped out and it ruins everything when I do make it for real. Because if he really does love me like I love him, I don't think he'd have the guts to say it. I just want him to know, for sure. Can you help? Thanks.
Now what I think is if I told him, and actually meant something behind it. It would make him feel good, then it would mean something again. Because we say it a lot and it is getting old, at least to me. I want it so be special between us whenever I tell him and I want it to be dead serious. How could I tell him though, without it in any way being a joke? Because I can't think off any way to say it differently than the way I do when joking. And by joking, I do mean it. Just like I mentioned earlier, we do it as a cover up. Anyway, I want him to know I ACTUALLY love him instead of just beating around the bush and making it all fun & games. Even if he gets creeped out and it ruins everything when I do make it for real. Because if he really does love me like I love him, I don't think he'd have the guts to say it. I just want him to know, for sure. Can you help? Thanks.