Close to giving up.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Alcohol. It seems like a great idea right now. Maybe then I can forget everything and not worry... And maybe get a decent nights sleep...

I feel so fucking low. I want to cut - but I can't. Not til parents have gone to bed anyway. I've managed to piss off my girlfriend. Nothing is going right at ghettos minute, never seem to be able to-do anything right.

I'm just so close to just slashing my arms, to just giving up.

At the end of the day, why cares about silly, little me...

Again I apologise for wasting your time...

[Castle of Glass]

i feel the same way. i want to cut, but i can't. i want to smoke cannabis, but i can't. alcohol is not an option for me. but i feel low also. :(

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I hate it... and I cant seem to break out of the cycle.

[Castle of Glass]

i know. nearly cut today for the first time :(

[OldSchool]

Alcohol is never a solution to anything. On the other hand, talking helps a lot.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

i know. nearly cut today for the first time :(

No matter how bad you feel, please don't ever start cutting. It only gets worse. It really isn't worth it. So please don't. I regret starting to cut, I wish someone had told me the dangers of cutting before I'd started...

Alcohol is never a solution to anything. On the other hand, talking helps a lot.

I know it isn't. Im not much of a talker though, which is the problem...

[Castle of Glass]

No matter how bad you feel, please don't ever start cutting. It only gets worse. It really isn't worth it. So please don't. I regret starting to cut, I wish someone had told me the dangers of cutting before I'd started...
I know that, it is just that i want to hide, forget, or cover up my depression somehow.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Find another outlet, talk to someone, go to the doctors... only things I can really suggest :/

[Castle of Glass]

i really can't talk, as i am not good at talking about my feelings and emotions, and going to the doctors would result in my parents know, not a good idea.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Roughly in the same boat as you, apart from the fact that the doctors legally can't say anything to my parents as I'm legally seen as an adult now...

[Castle of Glass]

yea but i am only 14, so they would tell them, unless i went to the teen clinic, for teens and only teens, but it is about an 30 minute bike ride. :( the only thing keeping me from cutting and smoking cannabis is the quote in my sig.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

That sucks :/

What does it say?

[jklarson]

Alcohol is never a solution to anything. On the other hand, talking helps a lot.

I quite agree that alcohol is not a solution to anything but sometimes it could helps to ease the pain, but we need to remember that we should not rely always on alcohol. Talking really helps together with the people we trusted the most.

[Castle of Glass]

Lord, let me remember that my life ends, that life has been limited/numbered. Teach me to realize how mortal I am! or just search the CJB PS. 39:5 closest version to the Finnish Bible. Well, that quote is not the only thing stopping me, but it is one of the main things