They say I'm strong.... But, I cut again

[Fallen Angels]

I started self harming by using my nails, small wire and stuff like that. It grew into cutting. I was doing some form of self harm everyday for a little while... I never decided to stop. But, I realized it's been a few weeks and nothing. Thing with me though... I like to pull myself back into the depression.

So, today I cut. I do small cuts but they get a little deeper every time. I don't know why I even decided to cut... but I did. I always have this voice whispering to me... telling me what's wrong with my appearance, or that I'm stupid, not good enough, trash, ect. But, today when I cut there was something else. I was cleaning my cuts as I was cutting. And, when I was wiping away the blood I heard a voice saying It's okay...I'm right here. I'll stay with you no matter what.

I don't really want to stop.... but I know I should. I guess one reason I did today was because I felt like cutting was something else I failed at. Because my cuts didn't scar. Stupid I know ._.

People tell me I'm I'm strong. They don't know I cut. Am I strong? I ask myself this question everyday... Please tell me... Am I strong? :what:

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Yes you are. Want to know why/how I know?

Because of your post. You're telling someone that you cut, even if it is over a website where you (possibly) don't know anyone. It's a step forward that takes strength to do :)

Just because you cut, doesn't make you weak - always remember that...

[Thepolice5291]

Yes, You are, Like Loveme_hateme said YOU are telling someone and trying to get help That to me is strong, You're still living, The first time I cut it left scars and I still have them (3 months ago), I Try to cover them up, i tried suicide and didn't succeed, I'm Not strong because I tried to give up, YOU are strong, YOU are still living, Just try to give up on cutting and that makes you an even stronger person, I don't know what you have been through but cutting Is usually done for attention, I cut for attention, i have stopped now, But yes You are strong

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Yes, You are, Like Loveme_hateme said YOU are telling someone and trying to get help That to me is strong, You're still living, The first time I cut it left scars and I still have them (3 months ago), I Try to cover them up, i tried suicide and didn't succeed, I'm Not strong because I tried to give up, YOU are strong, YOU are still living, Just try to give up on cutting and that makes you an even stronger person, I don't know what you have been through but cutting Is usually done for attention, I cut for attention, i have stopped now, But yes You are strong

Thanks for agreeing, nice know someone actually makes sense of my mixed up rambles :cool:

However, what do you mean by 'it's usually done for attention'?

[Thepolice5291]

Thanks for agreeing, nice know someone actually makes sense of my mixed up rambles :cool:

However, what do you mean by 'it's usually done for attention'?

By That I mean, Most people do it to cry for help and hope someone finds out and will help you, At least that was what I did

[LoveMe_HateMe]

By That I mean, Most people do it to cry for help and hope someone finds out and will help you, At least that was what I did

Ah, sorry, when you said that alto of people did it for attention, I thought you meant that they did it to fit in, you know the whole, they do it for fun blah blah