I dont know what to do..

[Heisen8erg]

This has been the worst few days of my LIFE. It all started on Friday, it was my birthday and i didnt get very much, only about 40 dollars, but im grateful i got that.

On friday me and some of my closest friends that ive grown up with since kindergarden were gonna get together and do some stuff.. Im always the one who gets picked on or made fun of EVERY time were together.. We were gonna hang out but then they heard about this party and completely ditched me for it.. So on saturday i was with them and i forgave them because ive known them all my life.

We were at my house and they kept making fun of me, spitting sunflower seed shells on my floor and ashing there cigarettes on my floor, so i asked them to leave. They kept saying no and got mad at me so i called my mom and told her they wouldnt leave, because they were really upsetting me and making fun of me and disrespecting my place. Now i asked what was going on today and they all keep telling me to fuck off and go away etc...

Now this is only part of it, my current girlfriend that im with is mad at me for NOTHING. I lost my virginity to her and everything, and i really dont want to lose her. But i wanted her to come see me today and she wont, i told her id come see her and she still refuses, i think shes getting sick of me.. Even when i mentioned i wanted to kill myself she just said "LOL You piss me off too much" and stopped replying..

My life is such a shithole.. I havent done anything to deserve this but my life just keeps getting worse and worse :(

I dont know what to do, can somebody PLEASE tell me what i should do, or tell me an easy way to just kill myself and fix my mistake of being born..

[XxAlonexX]

i assume you are under 18 so if you're somewhere between 15 and 18, it'll be just a few more years n u can leave the whole area and start afresh. somewhere where no one will know you and you'll make some proper friends.
As for your gf... she doesn't deserve you, if she won't support you then she's not gonna be a nice person to spend ur life with. I know it's hard but just ditch her, if she is gonna give u shit when u need help now, she aint gonna change.

But commiting suicide should be a complete last resort, try any other option first. I really want to commit suicide but i'm going to wait until i'm 18 n see if getting my independance helps.

Give everything i try first

And ditch anyone who doesn't respect you. You deserve better. You may have known them for years but they are no friends of yours.

[Heisen8erg]

I just turned 15 on friday.. So yeah i still have afew more years to go. But i honestly cant stand this.. Life is a big joke to me, i beg whatever bullshit "God" there is for my life to change but it NEVER happens..

I cant do it myself because its what other people do to me that effects it..