What to do ???

[XxAlonexX]

Hi

I've been depressed for years, I'm 17 atm, coming up to 18

So basicly this last week i've lost my best friend. He betrayed my trust. My bf isn't talking to me as i have started cutting again (which obviously makes it worse), i have become so noticiablly depressed lately that my parents have fell out with me over it. Also everyone at work has noticed, i've screwed up so much lately at work lately and i'm being constantly had a go at.

So heres a check list

BBF - gone
BF - gone
Parents - Hate me
Work - Hate me
Legs - cut
Wrists - will be next
Suicide - very soon

So theres my life. I should probs just go to someone and tell them.

I just don't care anymore

I am Alone

[Mortal Coil]

You aren't alone. You have VT. And that's why you joined, isn't it?To find people. Yes, people leave. People fight. But these problems really are temporary. Your parents don't hate you, and it kills me that suicide is a reasonable option for you. Please hold on, because there really is more to life and you should be around to see it.

[XxAlonexX]

I seriously doubt anyone here will really give a shit, although correct me if i'm wrong... I just want things to go back to normal
things have been so shit

[Mortal Coil]

If nobody gave a shit, why would I have replied? Nobody can blame you for wanting things to be back to normal, and the fact that you still want things to change, that you still care, just proves that you have hope left. You can do this and we VTers will help you do that.

[XxAlonexX]

Good point.
I guess you're right
Doesn't really stop me wanting to fuck myself up a bit more

[Mortal Coil]

Yeah, I see your point. Are you currently on any medication or going to therapy?

[XxAlonexX]

No. I was on medication but i didn't help. Haven't been back since. When i have some sense i do consider going back to get help, but as of yet i have not

[Mortal Coil]

How long ago did you quit the medication? That might have something to do with this.

[XxAlonexX]

About 4 months ago, i did it properly, lowered the doesage first and that

[Mortal Coil]

Okay then, that doesn't sound like you would still be in withdrawal. I guess you'll just have to keep pushing. I know it's hard but it's what we have to do. I'd recommend that you go and get some therapy, because there are real issues that you need to work past in order to help yourself. Stay strong :)

[XxAlonexX]

Thanks, I think i'll do that