I'm furious and I'm afraid I'll fall back into depression, help?

[kye.]

For those of you who don't want to read the whole story, here's a summarized one-

I have a friend that I'll call Erika just to protect her privacy even if she doesn't deserve it. And her enemy that I'll call Elisa. They've being fighting and arguing since we were sophomores at high school (2009) and in result, I ended up being bullied too because I was Erika's friend and Elisa made every single friend that Erika had against her. I got so depressed and suicidal that I went to the pavilion. Today I just got home from work, only to find out that Erika and Elisa are best friends now. I am so furious and depressed at the same time because I went through so much because of Elisa and Erika just forgives her like nothing ever happened. I owe the pavilion $14k, the counselor at the pavilion about $1k, the counselor that I used to see weekly like $5k. Right now, I'm to my boiling point. I'm angry, furious,..words can't explain how I feel towards Erika. I definitely want to break the friendship as I soon as I see her tomorrow and place her where she belongs, but the fact that she was my only friend makes me depressed because now for sure I'll be lonely. I just can't put up with it :( Is it wrong that I'm feeling this way? Is it okay for her to be friends with my enemy and her used-to-be-enemy?

For the ones who want to read the detailed story, I'll post it in a little bit in a separate post.

[Noirtier]

Is it wrong that you're feeling disdain and hatred towards someone who wronged you greatly? No, not really. That's a natural thing to feel. It's your choice whether to forgive them and move on, or to hold the grudge though. As for is it ok for her to be friends with your enemy and her used-to-be-enemy? In all honesty, yes it is. You don't control her. If she wants to make friends with someone who you don't particularly like, you can't really stop her. Now, that all being said, you have every right to feel the way you do. She hurt you and cost you a LOT of money and energy and heartache and grief. Now one of your only friends is acting like none of it ever happened. And it's hard, because you were hurt deep by it. But your choices right now are to either break the friendship out of anger and be left alone, or to do your best to start to move on and keep the friendship. Maybe Elisa has even changed, and isn't as bad as she used to be. Don't act rashly out of anger and do something that you would regret hun. That won't really help anything. I would advise you to keep the friendship and see if you can't begin to move on from the pain that she caused you, as hard as it may be--trust me, I've been in this situation more than once. For me, moving on was the best option. And if you ever need to talk, all of us are here to help. I wish you the best of luck, both with this and paying back the fees you owe...

[kye.]

Is it wrong that you're feeling disdain and hatred towards someone who wronged you greatly? No, not really. That's a natural thing to feel. It's your choice whether to forgive them and move on, or to hold the grudge though. As for is it ok for her to be friends with your enemy and her used-to-be-enemy? In all honesty, yes it is. You don't control her. If she wants to make friends with someone who you don't particularly like, you can't really stop her. Now, that all being said, you have every right to feel the way you do. She hurt you and cost you a LOT of money and energy and heartache and grief. Now one of your only friends is acting like none of it ever happened. And it's hard, because you were hurt deep by it. But your choices right now are to either break the friendship out of anger and be left alone, or to do your best to start to move on and keep the friendship. Maybe Elisa has even changed, and isn't as bad as she used to be. Don't act rashly out of anger and do something that you would regret hun. That won't really help anything. I would advise you to keep the friendship and see if you can't begin to move on from the pain that she caused you, as hard as it may be--trust me, I've been in this situation more than once. For me, moving on was the best option. And if you ever need to talk, all of us are here to help. I wish you the best of luck, both with this and paying back the fees you owe...

Thanks for taking your time to read my post. I decided to just let her do whatever she wants as long she doesn't bring her friend around me. Today I got mad at her at work because she brought Elisa to eat, and I ended up being depressed afterwards but I'm doing fine now.