Please can somebody give me motivation or advice or word of comfort or something?

[Wintergirl_80.0]

I'm trying so hard to recover and I've been doing so well but i checked my weight and it is to 140 again and i hate it and myself so much and i wanna know what the point of recovery is if you feel like shit all the time! :,( i want to feel beautiful like i did when it started going down i want to feel amazing and confident and i cant because of the stupid scale and the mirror!!!!!!!!!

[StoppingTime]

The scale doesn't dictate your beauty.
You're beautiful to the people who see you as such, and you should at least try to see yourself like that, too.
If there's someone who loves and cares about you, they won't at all be concerned with the number on the scale (and in your case, that isn't even anywhere close to a dangerous weight for your age).
It's much easier, in the long run, not to mention healthier, to diet and eat without starving yourself and purging. I'm sure you know that, but it's something you really need to tell yourself if you're serious about recovery.

That you want to recover so that you can feel better, so you aren't always under constant stress about your weight, and everything like that.
It takes time, sure, but in the end, I'm sure you'll agree it's worth it.

[Wintergirl_80.0]

does it truly get better?

[Mortal Coil]

In response to your question about it getting better, just read "Wasted." Yes, it gets better when you no longer have a healthy body in a disordered mind, but until then you can weigh anything and still have your ED. Complete recovery is possible and has happened. You are not fat at all, that's a perfectly healthy weight for our age. You are beautiful regardless of what the scale tells you.

[Wintergirl_80.0]

i dont know if that is encouraging or not...

[RockObsessed]

Please, please, PLEASE don't feel bad. I had an eating disorder too, and I have felt the same way. Just remember that you're you and you are perfect just the way you are. And I'm not just saying that. I'm dead serious. I was a certain weight that I felt was heavy, but that was just my ED speaking. When I tried to join track, the coach said that I had to gain TEN more pounds until I was allowed to join. That made me realize that my ED distorted my view of 'normal weight'. 140 pounds is just fine! It sounds perfectly normal! Well, unless you're like 4 feet or something.

I hope this helped and feel free to PM me if you need more advice or you just need someone to talk to. 'Kay? :)

[Wintergirl_80.0]

okay

[squibles976]

Stop being so superficial and life would be better

[Allbutanillusion]

I sympathize with you and I have some thoughts I would like to share with you. Take from them what you will, I leave them to your own interpretation but I do hope that they will help you to have a better outlook.


Lets take butterflies for example, Butterflies can’t see their wings. They can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. People are like that as well.


Also when it comes to self image and physical appearance, People never notice the beauty that always existed because they were/are too busy trying to create it.

[Wintergirl_80.0]

the butterfly thing makes alot of sense