Freaking out.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

I don't know what to do,
I don't know how to cope.
I'm having panic attacks about EVERYTHING.
Finally when i start to finally reconize when i'm having a panic attack I start getting them everyday.
these last two weeks have been horrible.
I feel like i have no where to turn,
because i'm panicing about everything, friends, boys, family, school, myself going insane.
My hearts beating so fast.

I'm so dissipointed in myself.
I thought i was done cutting.
But the second I'm faced with someone who wants to be with me,
I start cutting again.
Ugh.
i hate this.

I have no hobbies or anything like that,
So i still havn't found something to replace cutting (well i replaced it with drugs and alchohal for a while)

I dont know how to deal with anything
and no, any suggested cutting tricks like "hitting yourself with a rubber band" doesnt work.

therapy hasnt worked. meds havnt worked.
I dont know what to do.

[Sapphire]

:hug:
I guess the first thing I would suggest would to find ways to keep your cutting under relative control. Find a way you can limit how often you reach for the blade.

[Malcolm Tucker]

:hug:
I guess the first thing I would suggest would to find ways to keep your cutting under relative control. Find a way you can limit how often you reach for the blade.

Yeah i agree, cut back on the cutting for a while, do it less often.

[RaisingSand]

I agree with Carole, perhaps cutting down a bit (but not completely) is a good idea. I hope things start to get better for you. Hang in there. :hug:

[kovert43]

i dunno about cutting and the addiction but try somthing else like throwing sumthing at sumthign when ur mad or make a doll of some one u hate and throw and curse at cutting bad cause alot of my old friends cut 1 died cuzz deep cuts i couldent get over it