Oh god..

[Lyra Heartstrings]

I thought I stopped. I thought it was over. I thought I was finally done. That I was over self harming. But..I just lost it. I cut all over my stomach. And holy fuck it hurt. It's hurt more than ever. But..it felt so good. It felt so good to finally do it again. But now I'm just sick..I hate myself. I honest to god hate myself.

[ackmedsgirl666]

dont hate yourself for making one little mistake and letting go
i was on a good track record once upon a time almost a year and i skipped
just give yourself a little smack on the hand and whatever is bothering you will get better
just look at this as a small relapse

[Noirtier]

I thought I stopped. I thought it was over. I thought I was finally done. That I was over self harming. But..I just lost it. I cut all over my stomach. And holy fuck it hurt. It's hurt more than ever. But..it felt so good. It felt so good to finally do it again. But now I'm just sick..I hate myself. I honest to god hate myself.

Blake, hun, I know how you feel. Self harm addiction is a nasty thing, it's so easy to get into and so hard to get out of. And it's easier to slip up than with other addictions. And that's a part of the addiction too--the initial release feels good, but afterwards, when you realize what you did, it's disgusting and horrible to you. Hating yourself is one way that a lot of people feel after self harming--I did a lot of times. There is a way out though. I know it's hard--I've gone through it and still am--but at the very least you'll have us to support you. Because chances are you will fail again--chances are even I'll fail again. But we're here to help you, pick you back up, and support you so that you can try and beat this addiction once and for all. If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me. In the meantime, do anything you can to distract yourself--not just from the urge of cutting, but also from the self hatred. Make your mind busy elsewhere so it doesn't try and think about it anymore. We're all here to support you..

[Fractured Silhouette]

Look, I know that initial release allows you to feel better, but self-harm is going to do you no favours in the future, it's going to take away who you are and make it part of your identity, but because you have not really been self-harming you have a good chance to just leave it behind you and never do it again, it can only lead to disaster.

Okay, what is it exactly you hate about yourself? Have you tried to change that aspect of your lifestyle/body/behaviour? Why don't you try setting some future goals to strive to that will help you overcome these problems and make you feel better about yourself? One of those goals might be, going out more or having more conversations, or you know, whatever is you want to improve. You may start at rubbish at it, but the more you do it, the better you'll become at it until you realise you have changed yourself for the better.

Look, self-harm is a dirty lie, that feeling you get is a lie, it doesn't help, with stress, it creates more. I mean do you really want to go through life covered in scars for the rest of your life? Most of us here don't but we have little choice now, you're a smart kid, so please make the right choice and stay away from this habit, throw away your knives, and strive towards improvement.

[CyanideGoodnight]

One relapse doesn't mean you're back into it. Just do everything you can to stop. Feel that horrible crushing guilt? Don't feel it. Don't feel guilty. However, the next time you want to, stop and remember how horrible it felt after you did it.

You got so far, and I'm sure you have the strength to pick yourself up and do it again.

Remember you're never alone, you have us crazy people to help you out :)