I feel like im losing.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Losing my mind, myself, everything.

I can't concentrate anymore, every little thing is getting to me, I feel so shit all the time, so low. Wanting to cut daily, contemplating suicide on a daily basis. Dad I feel is getting closer and closer to becoming an alcoholic. I'm struggling with college and keeping up with it. I need to get my act together and start looking at universities for next year. I'm struggling to keep on top of everything. Struggling to sleep. Struggling to even eat properly. Struggling to leave my room, let alone the house for college/work.

I'm just struggling to stay alive. I have 3/4 people I'm staying alive for, girlfriend, parents and girlfriend's mum. Other than that? Next joke.

My grandad won't even recognise me anymore, he doesn't even recognise his own son.

I can't keep it together anymore. I know I'm going to end up crashing very soon and doing some serious damage.

I don't even know why I'm posting this. I don't know whether to just get it off my chest or looking for support, or someone to help make sense of the shit going off in my head or what.

I am sorry thought, if you have read all this, I'm sorry for wasting your time...

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Losing my mind, myself, everything.

I can't concentrate anymore, every little thing is getting to me, I feel so shit all the time, so low. Wanting to cut daily, contemplating suicide on a daily basis. Dad I feel is getting closer and closer to becoming an alcoholic. I'm struggling with college and keeping up with it. I need to get my act together and start looking at universities for next year. I'm struggling to keep on top of everything. Struggling to sleep. Struggling to even eat properly. Struggling to leave my room, let alone the house for college/work.

I'm just struggling to stay alive. I have 3/4 people I'm staying alive for, girlfriend, parents and girlfriend's mum. Other than that? Next joke.

My grandad won't even recognise me anymore, he doesn't even recognise his own son.

I can't keep it together anymore. I know I'm going to end up crashing very soon and doing some serious damage.

I don't even know why I'm posting this. I don't know whether to just get it off my chest or looking for support, or someone to help make sense of the shit going off in my head or what.

I am sorry thought, if you have read all this, I'm sorry for wasting your time...

You arent wasting any ones time here! We all wanna help you. I wish I could be of actual help though being I feel the same... Basically everything is going down hill and nothing is right. But I really hope things get better, hold in there.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Even just you commenting, saying that you feel the same, as much as it sucks, it helps. It helps knowing that I'm not the only one who feels like this, so thank you :)

At the end of the day, there will be light at the end of tunnel, we just have to stick around long enough to find/see it.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Even just you commenting, saying that you feel the same, as much as it sucks, it helps. It helps knowing that I'm not the only one who feels like this, so thank you :)

At the end of the day, there will be light at the end of tunnel, we just have to stick around long enough to find/see it.

Youre welcome :) True, you gotta stay strong and no matter how bad it is just pull through.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I know, just easier said than done sometimes though.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Very true and its hard... :/

[ackmedsgirl666]

what you are doing is good
instead of keeping all that pent up anger bottled up inside your letting lose
this is a good sign that your trying to make a change in your life and avoid cutting :)
keep your head up

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Very true and its hard... :/

Why can't life just be simple, ey?

what you are doing is good
instead of keeping all that pent up anger bottled up inside your letting lose
this is a good sign that your trying to make a change in your life and avoid cutting :)
keep your head up

Nah, I have shit loads more where that came from. I'm not an angry person, well not towards other people so when someone pisses me off I'll bottle it up and turn it towards myself. Hence all the scars and stuffs.

[flypower191]

if life were 2 b simple it wudnt b dat interestin XP