I feel theres no way out

[LateForTheSky]

I hate myself, i hate pritty much everyone around me and I cannot escape it. The incompeteant fools in school their laughter echos through my mind till i just want to say STOP! I want to go home Take off this uniform and leave the show But im waiting here because i have to know have i been gullty all this time.
The burdan of my life is crushing my soul killing my spirit making me feel all alone in the world. I feel like i am incomplete. I want more, and the only person who can help me acts like i dont exist. I might as well just tell him how i feel and suffer the humiliation of being publicly gay. That way maybe I would be noticed. My friends are becoming more distant as the days roll on. And I feel the seconds on the clock are ticking making me one day closer to death. I have nervous break downs reguraly and dont recover for a long time. Now i ask u this is a life such as mine worth living. I want to leave myself and be a somebody because im tired of trying to hard for others im tired of trying to be liked by being myself. Im tired of the concept of life. I nwant it alll to stop.

[RaisingSand]

I know how you feel man. :( All you can do is try to get through, find something to live for. Whether it's something small or not, just anything that'll help you get through.
High school is well, crap. And life does get way better after it. :D

[DouggyO.o]

In the end, everything will be ok. So, if it's not ok, then it's not the end. Hard times come, but they also go

[RaisingSand]

Good advice man. :) I agree.

[RaisingSand]

You do. :) That and all the trivialities and high school drama disappear, that's a big plus (btw, be nice to the nerds, they'll in all likelihood end up being your boss one day, lol. XD)

[LateForTheSky]

I would like to thank for the support although I dont know how to deal with my problems right now a do not wish to do nothing and wait for them to fly away. My biggest problem is my friends becoing more distant as the days go by I am starting to see myself hanging around with people I previously wouldnt talk to if they were god! I want my old friends back butI get the impretion they dont want me. I was in PE today and started to make real progress in getting to know someone I have always liked if u know what I mean but there are 2 of his friends that are well dodgy and I dont want to go in to deep I seen it happen to my brother as soon as third year hit he went off the rails I dont want to end up like him he has turned into a right jakey after school. I just want more control over my life I feel I am being forced to change with things that really shouldnt change for everyones sake not just mine. I dont want to see my friends hanging with people who are not what most people class as sycologicaly intelegtual. They ar eboaring rude and most of all BULLYS!!! I need to take control but I dont know how but i have to before its to late.