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SilentCutter
October 12th, 2012, 09:01 PM
My parents found a knife in my room that they left in there, and I was just 2 lazy to put it away lol and now they think im cutting myself again. And I told them I wasnt . And guess wat? They believed me:) bt it was a total lie. I cut in new places. I cant stop:( no matter how hard I try, nothing gives me tht feeling.
thesurferdude
October 13th, 2012, 09:02 AM
what feeling?
nobody091
October 13th, 2012, 10:05 AM
I was always finding it kind of stunning how easy it is to hide everything behind one little fake smile :), teachers in school kindof started to notice that there is something wrong with me these days (and they are making big deal out of it, its private school -_-) so little talk full of lies and smile every time teacher passes by solves everything. Its unbelievable how blind people can be...
XxfakexX
October 13th, 2012, 02:49 PM
I was always finding it kind of stunning how easy it is to hide everything behind one little fake smile :), teachers in school kindof started to notice that there is something wrong with me these days (and they are making big deal out of it, its private school -_-) so little talk full of lies and smile every time teacher passes by solves everything. Its unbelievable how blind people can be...

Ha, i'm exactly the same! I just stay with my friends and act like i'm having fun. Private schools are horrible, they always try and get me to talk about how i am. They're nosey.
nobody091
October 13th, 2012, 03:08 PM
Ha, i'm exactly the same! I just stay with my friends and act like i'm having fun. Private schools are horrible, they always try and get me to talk about how i am. They're nosey.

Hah, good to know I am not alone but I guess many people here have to do that :). I cant stand people, not the kind of people which are in my class, I am spending my time in computers room alone, i told them i am doing work and i cant concentrate with other people. Teachers were annoying me like for two days then i started to seem ok so they kind of forgot :) Well anyway I need to survive this year and next year to England to university so I will see how it goes. Anyway, I still cant believe how easy it is to lie.
Bastille
October 14th, 2012, 05:53 PM
Lying's easy, it's just all the back stories that get me in trouble :P
xXJamXx
October 14th, 2012, 05:59 PM
I was always finding it kind of stunning how easy it is to hide everything behind one little fake smile :),...

^ That is SO true. It works everytime.

If you wanna stop cutting, you need to want to stop, first of all. Second, you need to tell your parents if you want to stop.
LoveMe_HateMe
October 15th, 2012, 05:17 PM
^ That is SO true. It works everytime.

If you wanna stop cutting, you need to want to stop, first of all. Second, you need to tell your parents if you want to stop.

^ I agree with the first bit, if you want to stop, you have to want to stop otherwise it just doesn't work and gets worse further down the line - trust me.

I do however disagree with the second point, depending on your relationship with your parents, it could make things worse. Or at least not help. When my parents found out they made me go to the doctors/counselling and it didn't help, just made me feel worse.

But at the end of the day you do whatever feels right in your situation, only you knows that.


Back to the OP's original statement... yes it does become very easy to lie and hide behind a fake smile. I pulled it of pretty well at work the other day as a customer came in and started giving me abuse and it got to me, went on my break, cried, came back and acted like nothing had happened. I still find it amazing how something so small as a smile can change a person's mind about how you are feeling.
SilentCutter
October 16th, 2012, 11:10 PM
thank you all for your kind words. it really helped :)
Imfeelinglostagain
November 27th, 2012, 11:53 AM
A smile is by far the best lie. No one can tell you're hurting underneath so you don't have to feel weak. But the problem with always hiding behind a smile is that you forget how to really smile. Every day you put on this mask to cover your hurt and soon the mask becime part of you. Soon, when you really are happy you can't tell because you've focused on pretending on being happy :/ but I guess its better to be a liar then to show how weak you are...