Will I ever get over it?

[sarah newman]

Over 2 years. The lies. Him touching my body. Him making me feel like its my fault. Well it is my fault isn't it? I didn't say no. I tried pushing him but he was over 6 foot tall.

Why can't I forget about it? I cut myself because of it, developed depression and anxiety because of it, had an eating disorder. I hate the fact he's on my mind every day all day. My councillor doesn't really help, even though she's nice. What shall I do? What can I do to forget? Or will it always be on my conscience?

[Hypers]

Sarah, it's not your fault. All will be better soon. Always be strong, and live in the present. You can't change what has happened, but you can change your attitude of the future. Anything might happen. You might be a great person in the future.

[SmexiLexie510]

I don't think when you've experienced something incredibly tragic and hard to deal with, then you won't completely forget it, it becomes a part of who you are you and makes you stronger, you won't forget, it will just become less and less important until it doesnt effect you that way anymore. it takes time, but u are strong x

[sarah newman]

Thank you, I'm just struggling a lot at the moment x

[deadtotheworld]

Hi sarah,

first of all you are amazing for having the courage to post here about how you are feeling. I know that living with the thoughts and memories of what happened is so very hard but its all about your attitude. You need to truly know and believe that this was NOT your fault in any way. You are a beautiful person who is worthy of love. Things wont always be bad i promise. Maybe try and seek other help if your counciller isnt helping?

[sheeshcabob]

none of this is your fault. you should tell someone and try tot get help though. there are certain things like this that are very hard to get over yourself. Other people will know what to do to help you and they will not blame you for anything that had happend.

[ackmedsgirl666]

its very hard to rid yourself of your bad memories
i know exactly how you feel. when serious things(bad things) maybe even hurtful things happen in our lives they stay on our consciousness forever :(
fortunately theres not much you can do there

[MayMay1007]

I understand I was raped my 3 different people for 4 years when I was younger and it still affects me. :/

[broken111]

i went through the same thing and let me tell you this it will get better eventually. I dont know how you are but it got better for me and i believe it will for you too. You deserve to live a happy life

[sarah newman]

My councillor wants to put my case to an end because she thinks I'm better. She doesn't even know how I'm feeling about this; I've tried telling her but she talks more about my eating disorder.

[Love.Hate]

You won't always blame yourself, but you won't ever fully forget. Over time you just learn to manage it, to block out the thoughts.. Kind of move on from it in a sense. Trust me it really does get easier eventually

[Stronk Serb]

Try o focus on the future, not the past, what happened, it happened, what will happen is more important, I am no expert.on this one, but think about your close future.

[sarah newman]

Thank you

[Etcetera]

I can't say I know how you feel, because I haven't gone through your exact situation, but in many aspects, I do understand.

I've had a really rough life. I was abused, and am a victim of sexual abuse between the ages of infant to 6 by my biological dad, among many other things.

No, you probably never will 'get over it,' you can learn over time to deal with your emotions and feelings in a healthy way, but you will never forget and get over it. It will always be there. I know, it's really, really hard. I too am a self-harmer, and I've gone through an eating disorder and am still struggling with depression.

As for the counselor thing, I know. My first real counselor wasn't a good one for me. You have to find one that is perfect for you in order for you to reap the true benefits from the counseling. If it isn't the right counselor for you, then all of your time spent with them is not worth your time at all. I spent 5 years with that counselor, and she didn't really help me with much.

It's really hard, I know. And I'm definitely here if you want to talk, because I know where you are coming from. I wont push it on you, because I know you need space, but if you need to talk, even just someone to listen, I'm here, PM me.