Reina
October 12th, 2012, 04:30 AM
I'm rather new to these forums, so please excuse me if I don't post in the way that I'm supposed to.
I've been depressed for a year, but have only come to terms with it over the past month or two. It runs in my family - my father is depressed as well, which probably contributes to it. However, certain events that I suppose could be considered traumatic have likely contributed as well. I'll go into that more if you'd like, but for now I want to stick with the basics.
I feel empty inside. I can feel the shells that used to be emotions when things happen. This sounds strange, I'm sure, and it's not something that I can describe.
I find myself lacking feelings of sympathy or guilt, but occasionally I will feel these in great volume. When I feel sad or angry, the feelings are unbearably strong. However, I haven't felt happy in what seems like months. I find myself staying home from school and staring at walls or surfing the internet, then making up for all of the missed work frantically.
The main reason for this post is to ask about this emptiness that I feel. I no longer have any friends whatsoever in real life due to this lack of "connection". I don't understand it, but it's definitely there.
I haven't told this to anyone before. I'm sorry if it's hard to follow or redundant. I just thought I'd share. Does anyone else who is depressed feel this "empty shell" feeling?
I've been depressed for a year, but have only come to terms with it over the past month or two. It runs in my family - my father is depressed as well, which probably contributes to it. However, certain events that I suppose could be considered traumatic have likely contributed as well. I'll go into that more if you'd like, but for now I want to stick with the basics.
I feel empty inside. I can feel the shells that used to be emotions when things happen. This sounds strange, I'm sure, and it's not something that I can describe.
I find myself lacking feelings of sympathy or guilt, but occasionally I will feel these in great volume. When I feel sad or angry, the feelings are unbearably strong. However, I haven't felt happy in what seems like months. I find myself staying home from school and staring at walls or surfing the internet, then making up for all of the missed work frantically.
The main reason for this post is to ask about this emptiness that I feel. I no longer have any friends whatsoever in real life due to this lack of "connection". I don't understand it, but it's definitely there.
I haven't told this to anyone before. I'm sorry if it's hard to follow or redundant. I just thought I'd share. Does anyone else who is depressed feel this "empty shell" feeling?