i miss my dad

[ackmedsgirl666]

ive shared on here before that me and my dad havent spoken in about 4 months and i just recently found out within the past few days that my dad is moving down east(to cape breton)

contact is already bad enough as it is and im scared that once he moves ill never hear or see from him again.

the depression is already bad enough. i really wanna see him before he leaves but he still wants nothing to do with me. what should i do?

i need to see my dad so badly. i just wanna talk to him.. but its been so long since ive heard his voice or talked to him online or aything. what upsets me the most is that he has 2 other children with my stepmother and he sees them daily and loves them to bits and pieces. he shoved me into foster care the one thing he promised my mother when he took me that he would never do. why do i feel so ashamed

is everything thats happened been my fault? i mean ive been blaming myself for everything...... and i feel like he hates me....

most days i end up feeling like cutting myself over this depression. which i dont wanna do....

i need somebody to talk to please :(

[xXoblivionXx]

Please don't blame yourself, this is not your fault...

[ackmedsgirl666]

but u dont understand
i feel it really is :'(

[xXoblivionXx]

maybe you feel like it really is because you want to solve the problem, you want to take responsibility for it so you can think that you can fix it... or maybe not. But hun please listen to me. You dad left you guys because of his thoughts, his actions. Not because of something that you said or did. We love you and care about you very much. Your dad didn't leave because of you, never ever think that. :hug3:

[Mikedamaniak]

You're 19, trying to get youself out their won't get you in trouble like id would have 2 tears ago. Actually you could even move there.

[Daracon]

I can kinda relate, my dad lives far away from me and I have not seen him in 2 years, he has 2 kids of his own as well, and I am pretty sure he loves them more than me. I wish we had more contact but he never calls. You could always drive down to where he lives considering you are 19, and visit him and seriously talk about your feelings regarding him.