Armor_King
October 10th, 2012, 11:06 PM
I just can't do anything right. I hate myself. Everyone in my house thinks I am perfectly happy and everything is fine. Like life is great because we have money and nice things. But it is not great. Not even good. I have a major problem with my self esteem since 6th grade.. I am depressed. I can identify these problems, but I can't seem to fix them. Every time I ask my mom for help, she just says that everything is fine, and then gives that, "You have nice things and a family" argument.
I am in online school this year. I couldn't ever get enough sleep last year, I always fell asleep in class, I just gave up when I failed 5 out of 7 classes. I am now in online school and it is still horrible. I haven't had a friend, or even talked to anyone really in 6 months.
I can't like myself at all. I really hate myself. I'm fat, ugly, socially awkward, and not good at anything. Nothing works, I don't see any reason to like myself at all. No one else seems to like me anyways either. Everyday I wish to be born as someone better. I want to just be a normal person, but I can't. Life is boring, dull, flat, unexciting. I just got dropped from 3 of my 6 online classes with a 0. Everything seems pointless. Why should I even try at this point? I'm already way behind in my life than a normal 15 year old. I'm such a fucking stupid weirdo and I hate it.
I am in online school this year. I couldn't ever get enough sleep last year, I always fell asleep in class, I just gave up when I failed 5 out of 7 classes. I am now in online school and it is still horrible. I haven't had a friend, or even talked to anyone really in 6 months.
I can't like myself at all. I really hate myself. I'm fat, ugly, socially awkward, and not good at anything. Nothing works, I don't see any reason to like myself at all. No one else seems to like me anyways either. Everyday I wish to be born as someone better. I want to just be a normal person, but I can't. Life is boring, dull, flat, unexciting. I just got dropped from 3 of my 6 online classes with a 0. Everything seems pointless. Why should I even try at this point? I'm already way behind in my life than a normal 15 year old. I'm such a fucking stupid weirdo and I hate it.