Mornings.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Does any one else ever just wake up and get the urge to cut... And without thinking about it or, at least not consciously thinking about it, go and do it?

This morning I woke up and I just had to do it. Not completely sure why, but the only thing that stopped me was my partner's Mum wanting to meet me before college. And even with the brilliant news that she had, I still had the need to cut... Still have the need to cut. I can't... Today's been... I don't know. I've been on edge all day and I know why. It's because I didn't cut this morning. I think.

Lately, I've been really on edge and anxious. Not sure why, I'm thinking it's because I've not cut in a while.

I don't know anymore. I'm just so lost and tired all the time. I'm struggling. I really am.

[Invisible7228]

Stay strong. I'm here to chat if you need someone to empathize :) x

[Noirtier]

Lately, I've been really on edge and anxious. Not sure why, I'm thinking it's because I've not cut in a while.

Hun, you're exactly right in what you said here. Cutting becomes an addiction. It becomes something that you feel you need to feel normal. You feel the urges because it's an addiction, and you're recovering from it. Part of recovery are, well, symptoms like you've described--being on edge, anxious, nervous, etc. Your body is trying to adjust to life again and fight the addiction that you've been in. I know it's hard, but you've been doing well to not have cut in a while! We're all here for you if you need to talk, and we'll always support you! :hug3: