rosey1228
October 6th, 2012, 11:30 AM
Hey i just wanted to know if anyone has an idea of what i could do.
im in an impatient unit, for self harm and suicidal ideas, but before i went to hospital i threw up every time i would purposely over eat. i lost 3 stone. then when i went in to hospital i struggled with keeping it a secrete, until they caught me throwing up. lately i don't want to eat meals because i know that im getting fatter, and that i need to lose more weight. i got told by a doctor that im bulimic and, today i didn't want to eat breakfast because the night before i had chocolate cake and couldn't throw it up, because they wouldn't let me, so i didn't want to eat. the staff dragged me to the table and i sat with one member of staff and she was being really out of order saying you normally fine, you need to get your act together, im going to talk to the eating disorder team leader and talk about you if you dont stop it. they wouldnt let me leave the hospital unless i ate. she was saying also, that maybe i dont want to be discharged if im not eating. it really made me feel worse. and i dont know what to do when i go back tomorrow? do i just ignore it? i need to throw up!! and lose weight!!! im fat!!! no one seems to understand. and its making me feel worse. :(
im in an impatient unit, for self harm and suicidal ideas, but before i went to hospital i threw up every time i would purposely over eat. i lost 3 stone. then when i went in to hospital i struggled with keeping it a secrete, until they caught me throwing up. lately i don't want to eat meals because i know that im getting fatter, and that i need to lose more weight. i got told by a doctor that im bulimic and, today i didn't want to eat breakfast because the night before i had chocolate cake and couldn't throw it up, because they wouldn't let me, so i didn't want to eat. the staff dragged me to the table and i sat with one member of staff and she was being really out of order saying you normally fine, you need to get your act together, im going to talk to the eating disorder team leader and talk about you if you dont stop it. they wouldnt let me leave the hospital unless i ate. she was saying also, that maybe i dont want to be discharged if im not eating. it really made me feel worse. and i dont know what to do when i go back tomorrow? do i just ignore it? i need to throw up!! and lose weight!!! im fat!!! no one seems to understand. and its making me feel worse. :(