IVIodern
October 4th, 2012, 02:02 PM
/edit, This probably will make no sense to you.
So, this will be a rant, I just want to type my life.
About 3-4 years ago we got an internet connection into my house. Before this, I was fairly social, was outside daily and such. I started to play PS3 online after the internet got installed, this used to go on for hours, this was my first "killer" when it came down to my social life. Then I got a laptop, this was about 6 months to a year after that. The internet we installed then wasn't very good, so I could only use 1 at a time. I used to switch through these, play on PS3, go on laptop, PS3 again. I got into the "Call of Duty" series. I started to play that religiously, but when "Modern Warfare 3" came out this year, I gave up on that series, that game is a pile of shit. Anyway, back to the story. I hit puberty around this time, this was around middle of 13 years old. I never went out, I always blamed it on the fact that the people around me are either well older, around 20 and a lot younger, 10. I want to hang around with neither of them. This will come into effect later on. Around my birthday last year we got a good internet connection installed, at this point I started to be on forums. Now, my life is the same as it was 2 years ago. If anyone knows the Irish school system, I am in 3rd year, about to sit my Junior Cert, next June. I know this will not go well because I can't be bothered to do anything. I am currently, and have been for the past year, sitting on forums most of my day. I have friends at School. I have never had a girlfriend. Life is a bitch to me, this is because of bad decision making in the past. I am currently depressed, no one knows about it, not even my friends, nor parents. I see no good future for me.
All I want to do is give up.
So, this will be a rant, I just want to type my life.
About 3-4 years ago we got an internet connection into my house. Before this, I was fairly social, was outside daily and such. I started to play PS3 online after the internet got installed, this used to go on for hours, this was my first "killer" when it came down to my social life. Then I got a laptop, this was about 6 months to a year after that. The internet we installed then wasn't very good, so I could only use 1 at a time. I used to switch through these, play on PS3, go on laptop, PS3 again. I got into the "Call of Duty" series. I started to play that religiously, but when "Modern Warfare 3" came out this year, I gave up on that series, that game is a pile of shit. Anyway, back to the story. I hit puberty around this time, this was around middle of 13 years old. I never went out, I always blamed it on the fact that the people around me are either well older, around 20 and a lot younger, 10. I want to hang around with neither of them. This will come into effect later on. Around my birthday last year we got a good internet connection installed, at this point I started to be on forums. Now, my life is the same as it was 2 years ago. If anyone knows the Irish school system, I am in 3rd year, about to sit my Junior Cert, next June. I know this will not go well because I can't be bothered to do anything. I am currently, and have been for the past year, sitting on forums most of my day. I have friends at School. I have never had a girlfriend. Life is a bitch to me, this is because of bad decision making in the past. I am currently depressed, no one knows about it, not even my friends, nor parents. I see no good future for me.
All I want to do is give up.