RaisingSand
September 8th, 2007, 05:40 PM
After just over a month of not doing it (I'd been trying to quit) ... I'd had a really bad day at school, and what had really set me off was that in my study class at school that day, the group of people I usually sit and talk and laugh with started talking about suicide and self harm and kinda making fun of it and people who felt that way. :( It made me feel like such a failure and kinda really alone ... then I had a HUGE fight with my mom and she said some really nasty stuff ...
So later that night, I skipped dinner, had a few drinks, and took a razorblade and some vodka and went and had a bubble bath. :(
I know have 8 cuts on my right arm and three on my left.
I feel so awful because I know I should really, really stop doing this, and when I go see my therapist on Wednesday, he's gonna be really disappointed in me. *sigh*
So later that night, I skipped dinner, had a few drinks, and took a razorblade and some vodka and went and had a bubble bath. :(
I know have 8 cuts on my right arm and three on my left.
I feel so awful because I know I should really, really stop doing this, and when I go see my therapist on Wednesday, he's gonna be really disappointed in me. *sigh*