I'm just without any humor

[Dawn01]

Ok, this is probably going to get more serious as the day passes... :-(

Yesterday I kissed my crush, and he kissed me back, it was an awkward kiss, but I liked it a lot. The problem is that he texted me later saying that he couldn't correspond my love because he liked other girl, but he also said he was sorry and that he liked me a lot as friend. I actually told this story here: http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=153410

When I received his text, I was really like "ok, no problem", but as the day passes, I started feeling more and more sad... In my head I can't stop thinking about what happened, why he kissed me back and why he hadn't told me before that he liked other girl! And all that I want to do today is to lie in my bed and stay quiet for the rest of the day :'( I even tried to play some computer games, to listen to some music, but I just can't, I'm without any humor, I don't want to do anything, I lost interest in everything. I don't know what to say to him, but I feel like I need to say something, because it's not exactly over!

As I don't know what to do about it, I'm going really depressed. I had some suicidal thoughts, but ok, I know that won't kill myself, I just wanted to die, I mean, I want something to happen to cause my death because my thoughts are driving me so insane! I just need help, I need to hear something nice :/

[West Coast Sheriff]

A couple weeks ago I asked out a friend of mine who I was in love with, she turned me down and I've cried myself to sleep every night. I'm so depressed and I'm a fucking disgrace. I was a confident happy child and now I'm just a self-harming, pill popping, tear sobbing pussy. I know how hard it can be, but my I'd vice to you is to just try to move on before you've becom the piece of shit I have. Stay strong

[Dawn01]

I'm being strong, but I just lost my will to do almost all the things! I do think I deserve a better explanation about all this, but I won't force him to give it to me... But ok, we never know what could happen in the future :/ I'm just too sad for now

[West Coast Sheriff]

Just stay strong, hang in there. I'm available if you need to talk about something.

[Dawn01]

I can't lie to myself: I'm VERY sad now, and disappointed. Why he didn't told me that before? Why nobody actually told it to me? Is he only liking another girl or he is having some kind of relationship and I just made him cheat on her? :( I'm having such a bad time!

[West Coast Sheriff]

You go girl! And just be there for him. It sounds like he has feelings for another girl but you too. He's deciding who'll treat him better. Prove to him it's you by being a great friend. I know you can do this:D

Could it be possible he has mixed feelings between you and her? Maybe he likes you both but has to figure out whom he loves more? Just stay strong. Pls

[nice]

If he is starlight he might be questioning his sexuality after the kiss and doesn't know what to do so the girl could be a way for him to figure out what he is sexually.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

"Im so happy cause today I found my friends, theyre in my head" Dont let it bug you to much, Dawn! :) If its not him, youll find a better guy you can call your own!

[Dawn01]

Thank you for all the support! My day is being too shitty, but ok, I think can survive :/ I'll talk to him better about it, in fact, I feel worse about the possibility of he cheating on someone because of me than the fact he may not love me in the way I love him :-(

To tell the truth, I think know who the other girl could be... I think she is his last ex girlfriend, because I think I saw him sending a text to her yesterday. But really, if he still likes her, HE IS SO SICK!! They broke up about an year ago and she has another boyfriend now! But in fact, I know that she stills make him feel bad, because when we had the argument I told you in my first topic about him, it was at about the time his break up was making one year! So... If it's her, I definetly still have a lot of chances with him '-'

TheFbomb:EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE! But of course, I won't expect that to happen, if happens, ok, if not... I can find other person!

Nice: LOL, some people in the real life have told me that he could be gay! Actually, in the text he sent me, he didn't said that he liked another girl, he just said he liked another person... But I personally don't think he is gay!


Nirvana: LITHIUM AND YOU KNOW YOU ARE RIGHT ARE THE SONGS OF MY DAY!! Nirvana songs are the best songs to listen to when you are angry and sad! And I'll try to find another guy, I need a guy that won't never make me feel this terrible!


Again, thank you all, I hope that I will be able to understand what's really going on very soon :) Until there, I'll try not to crack!