TheHumanSpirit
September 27th, 2012, 12:52 AM
I recently told my parents that I'm gay. I just started college and entered into the working world. It's probably obvious that I'm gay through the way I act, but I notice that when I'm talking to straight guys, I change up my voice and act more masculine.
I don't talk about my sexual orientation with friends from work. I don't go out with friends from work. In fact, I might not even be able to call them "friends" from work, because I don't do anything with them except "work."
I also find myself constantly trying to please other people. I try to be the person I think they want me to be. I won't go against concrete values (like I won't get drunk or anything with some guy I really like...or then again, maybe I will?).
Another problem: Dating. I go to a private arts university. But the guy I like seems like a homophobe (and yet my friends and I all think he's closet gay). Great. I always pick the closet gays. :\
But then again -- I'm a multifaceted person. "Gay" doesn't define me. So, I don't necessarily "wave the flag" of being gay either. I'm not flaming. But, at the same time, I've never dated anyone. How am I going to get guys to notice me?
...I feel like I should read some inspirational books or something. Lol. Anyone got suggestions/comments? PLEASE. Feel free to post. I really need help with this.
I don't talk about my sexual orientation with friends from work. I don't go out with friends from work. In fact, I might not even be able to call them "friends" from work, because I don't do anything with them except "work."
I also find myself constantly trying to please other people. I try to be the person I think they want me to be. I won't go against concrete values (like I won't get drunk or anything with some guy I really like...or then again, maybe I will?).
Another problem: Dating. I go to a private arts university. But the guy I like seems like a homophobe (and yet my friends and I all think he's closet gay). Great. I always pick the closet gays. :\
But then again -- I'm a multifaceted person. "Gay" doesn't define me. So, I don't necessarily "wave the flag" of being gay either. I'm not flaming. But, at the same time, I've never dated anyone. How am I going to get guys to notice me?
...I feel like I should read some inspirational books or something. Lol. Anyone got suggestions/comments? PLEASE. Feel free to post. I really need help with this.