My Life

[The Resurrected One]

As most of you know about me, I'm not that of a happy person. There are some good and happy days for me, and then there are days where I really am thinking about dieing, like today. I've been way too depressed lately, and I've just been crying almost every day about almost everything. My dream is to just get the hell out of my damn house and live peacefully with the girl I truly love. :(

[Maverick]

Maybe you should stop being so obsessed and fixated on having a girlfriend. You're only 14 and no one finds love and a lasting relationship at 14. Find something else to do - a hobby, a sport, club, or whatever to keep yourself occupied so you can have some fun. But feeling sorry for yourself won't do anything and all you're doing most of the time is putting yourself through unnecessary grief with these people you so called love. Mature a little bit before worrying about a relationship and find something else to worry about. You should be out having fun instead of worrying about relationships.

Have a better attitude and learn to embrace people and make friends. Get involved in school with a club or sport. Put yourself in social situations and see what happens.

[The Resurrected One]

I really don't think it'll be that easy for me to feel better again. And I guess that when the time does really come to find someone to love, she'll still be the only one. But then it'll be too late.

[Maverick]

I really don't think it'll be that easy for me to feel better again.You made no effort or attempt to feel better. With that attitude you will never get better. You have to change the way you think and want to get better otherwise no one can help you. It's all down to you. You need to be open to trying something new and getting out of your comfort zone otherwise nothing will change.

If you think it's not going to be easy, it won't be easy. If you think positively, it will make things so much easier. It's all about attitude.

[The Resurrected One]

UPDATE:

Anthony, as I'm sure you know by now, I have been busy doing my website, so that kinda gave me something to do, and it was something that could take my mind off of her. But you know, daytime could be ok, but then night comes, when I start resting, and that's when my thoughts for her come back. Even if I had an amazing day, the night then will still be not very good. I try to think about other things, but for some reason, my heart doesn't want me to. Ok, any replies here could help now.

[stu22]

yo man listen to me...When i was going into freshamn year in high school i loved this girl so much but u cannot be fixiated on her. I made tat mistake and loved her til up to senoir year but u just have to be true to yourself there is no reason to be obsessed..does she know how u feel? b/c if she doesnt then forget it..this girl actually liked me too but i just didnt do n e thing and had to live with that so u do something now or trust me u will be feelin bad for a while........i know EXACTLY how u feel but it will past trust me

[The Resurrected One]

One thing I didn't say yet though, is that I have already planned to write her a letter, and see how that goes. You see, I never talked to her before or anything, so the letter will be my first form of communication to her. The letter I have decided to make is three pages long, and since I am too shy to give her the letter myself, I have decided to get someone I can trust to give it to her for me. Also, I don't want her to know who I am yet, because I don't know what she could do with the letter if she did know who I was, and just to make sure I felt it was better to just tell her my first name, and not my last name so she wouldn't know who I really was. In the letter I do tell her what grade I am in, my age, those things, but I didn't tell her my last name or anything like that.

Note that she didn't get it yet, but I am still working on it. I just want to try it, and see how it goes. That is because now I think that might be my first and only chance with her at all.

[Sage]

Erm, yeah... Anthony kinda summed up what I was going to say.

If you get so emotional at night over a lack of anything better to do, why not just... go to sleep earlier?

[RaisingSand]

^What he said. :/ Everything I wanted to suggest has already been said.

[The Resurrected One]

No offense to Tim, but that advice does not help at all in any way.

[Hauptmann Kauffman]

I think that I agree with Stu and Anthoney. Life goes on. Even if it seems as if it wont, It will. I really cant think of more to say, Its already been summed up...

[Hyper]

Johnny, you do know this girl right?

[The Resurrected One]

Johnny, you do know this girl right?

No, I haven't talked to her before. So for those who haven't believed in "love at first sight" before, I am living proof. :(

[Hyper]

No, I haven't talked to her before. So for those who haven't believed in "love at first sight" before, I am living proof. :(

And how long have you loved her..

[The Resurrected One]

And how long have you loved her..


Ever since last November or so.

[Hyper]

And you love her so much, that you are so depressed and you need her so much... That you have never talked to her, ever since you have ''loved'' her for almost a year?

[The Resurrected One]

And you love her so much, that you are so depressed and you need her so much... That you have never talked to her, ever since you have ''loved'' her for almost a year?


YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES!!!! I wish I could've talked to her! :cry:

It's just the kind of person I am. I'm too shy to do it. :cry:

[Hyper]

YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES!!!! I wish I could've talked to her! :cry:

It's just the kind of person I am. I'm too shy to do it. :cry:

So instead of ever finding out would you get what you want, you'll rather suffer and think if?

Just talk to her, and see on from there. Or else you'll end up even more fucked up then you are right now.

[The Resurrected One]

So instead of ever finding out would you get what you want, you'll rather suffer and think if?

Just talk to her, and see on from there. Or else you'll end up even more fucked up then you are right now.


LETTER! No talk.

[Hyper]

So you realize you are just doing this all to yourself, by being scared of what could happen..

Talk to her, girls like confidence not letters.. Generally

[The Resurrected One]

So you realize you are just doing this all to yourself, by being scared of what could happen..

Talk to her, girls like confidence not letters.. Generally

LETTER!!!! That is final.

[Hyper]

Well you atleast better send that letter..

[The Resurrected One]

Well you atleast better send that letter..


Damn it, you don't understand. Listen!:

I write letter.

I give letter to person.

Person gives letter to her.

Done.

[Hyper]

Yeah.. Like I said you better write that letter and send it to her.

[The Resurrected One]

The letter is already written, but it isn't sent yet.

And yes, I love her so very much, and if she rejects me afterwords, I am gonna feel all sad and even depressed again.

Damn it, I'm starting to cry again right now. :cry:

[Hyper]

The letter is already written, but it isn't sent yet.

And yes, I love her so very much, and if she rejects me afterwords, I am gonna feel all sad and even depressed again.

Damn it, I'm starting to cry again right now. :cry:

Just get the damn letter to her.. If you never send it you'll achieve the same thing as rejection would.. Only in a much longer course.

[The Resurrected One]

OK! Soon enough, I will.

[Hauptmann Kauffman]

Jeez everyone! Give Johnny a break!:(

[lucki_scotti]

it sounds like your going though a .....i dont wanna say stage but....stage. what i mean is like ever teenager in the world has bad day and good days. their hormones are going all over the place. Your hormones are generally agrivated by something that has happened to you. So your life mixed with a ton of homormones can lead to a really really crappy day.

When my aunt died, i went to school and my friend critized what i was wearing an d i lased out at her screaming. when in reality i wasnt mad at her i was still sad about my aunt dieing.

advice to handel it...well i personally became a christian and that helped but im not trying to press religion on you so dont take it the wrong way.....i also whenever i was mad to the point of crying would think of all the good things i have....i was crying in a room so that means i am lucky to have a room....i was crying so that ment i had enough water to cry so im lucky i only have to walk downstaris to get a drink of water....i wearing clothes when i cry so that menas im lucky to have clothes...

compare youself to poor african kids who have to walk 20 miles to get water....who have no clothes and no house....focus your anger to the anger of why no one helps these kids...and go and do something for them...this always calmes me down and makes me feel alot happier...plus it motivates me to give mony to charity....