14 and I think I really messed up.

[the dude]

So, like the title says, I'm 14 and I think I messed up hard. I've taken a bit of drugs since I was about 13 1/2. I started with weed, and I've smoked it quite a few times. The second drug I did was acid. I did one tab once, and two tabs another time, but I'm not sure if I got good acid because I didn't really trip that hard, the guy could have ripped me off. I then did diphenhydramine (I know it's retarded, I don't know what I was thinking. I really regret it and wish I hadn't done it) about 4 ish times, two times it didn't really work. I was hitting around 450MG dose, but I am also 5'4 and I weigh 115. I then did shrooms, probably a small amount, I couldn't really tell how much it was because I split with a friend (eyeballed). Between those trips I was smoking weed, and a bit of spice (terrible I know). I smoked spice maybe around 30-35 times in total and that's being generous. I didn't go hardcore while doing it either. I smoked weed around 40ish times, at max. I've also done around 2 bars of xanax, like two months spread in between each time, I've snorted one pill of oxy, and I've done codeine like twice. I'm scared right now that I could have possibly messed up my brain development... a lot. I'm not sure though, lately I've been really anxious and I'm not sure why, could be puberty but I really don't know. By anxious I mean panic attacks at school for no reason, trembling, and waking up at like 4 in the morning randomly. So, what do you guys think?
TL;DR took a bit of drugs from around 13 1/2 - 14 1/2 and I really regret it, and I'm wondering if you guys think that could have messed up my brain development.
Note: I've stopped all drug use, the last time I've touched any drug was around July. I'm not planning on using any drugs for a good amount of time.

[Lost in the Echo]

Well it doesn't take long for drugs to fuck up your body, but I would say you're fine considering you only used drugs for a year. As for the anxiety and panic attacks, it could possibly be drugs, or you are stressed out or depressed, or it may be withdrawl but i'm not really sure. I would recommend seeing a doctor for your panic attacks and anxiety, but if your parents would be pissed off about you doing drugs then you would be better off seeing your school nurse, either way just have a doctor/nurse check you out.

Also I can understand what you're going through, i'm battling an alcohol addiction, I haven't been drinking much lately and i'm trying to stop, or at least try to not drink so much. I wish you luck man, 2 months clean is impressive, keep it up. Also see a doctor if you keep having anxiety and panic attacks.

[West Coast Sheriff]

I've trapped DXM three times. Hit third plateau last night, first plateau this morning and second in the afternoon. The past two weeks I've done ibuprofen. I know it's not really a drug and will only mess up your liver. But 1400 mg of it is enough too calm you down when youre depressed. I took 15 ibuprofen pills today (3000mg). I'm also massively hooked on antacids. I snorted homemade drugs I've mixed myself and drink wine occasionally. There's other people out there. So I'd let you know. Don't feel to bad, just get off of it

[Abyssal Echo]

I'm no drug expert since all I've done is pot, hash, and hash laced with PCP been thru some really bad trips and know mentally I'm not the same. it would prob. be better to talk to scarface as far as the drug related issues

[TotalDbag]

I agree that you should see someone with medical expertise.
I too have a problem. I have a problem with a cigarette addiction. Wish you luck

[NotYourSombrero]

Yeah I know what your going through. I realized I needed to quit one night when I was really depressed one night and tried to trip on anything I thought could get me high I passed out and threw up in my sleep. I just quit drinking and am getting over withdrawal symptoms aside from insomnia and craving it really bad every-time I see it which is often (my dad is an alcoholic) But sense then my life is going really good and for the first time in as long as I can remember I am happy. Keep going it is really worth the pain of quitting.

[Manjusri]

The spice and acid could have messed up your brain development. Hallucinogenics aren't really recommended until around 16 - at least, that's my opinion. Strong hallucinogens like dmt should never be taken before you're finished developing. Not to say that acid isn't a strong hallucinogen, it's just not as strong as dmt. And yes, you were way to young to start experimenting with those in the first place.

Spice is chemical compounds thrown in a bag. Honestly you should never do spice. And i'm sorry to say this but those panic attacks are most likely related to using synthetics. They're known to do that, and after you've done it a lot those effects can stay with you. (Especially at such a young age).

Cannabis shouldn't be smoked daily until 16. If you do it before that fine, just try not to do it more than a couple times a month. After you're 16 you don't need to be worried about cannabis doing any damage, it's not harmful.

Opiates are addictive. Don't do those. (xanax, oxy, vics, ya know). The fact that you aren't doing them any more is good. Since they are a prescription drug, and since you only did it a couple times, those should not have done any damage.

Brain damage is possible, however, it's most likely not to whatever extent you think it is. The only thing you can do now is recover and learn from your mistakes. If the panic attacks do continue, consult a doctor. And before they sit you down trying to find out why you're having the panic attacks, save them the time and tell them why. All the best.

[the dude]

I haven't done drugs that heavily, like there's around a 2 month break between the acid trips and like a 4 month break after that until I did shrooms. The spice was like every other day (once) at most, and maybe even more spaced out. Some nights it would be like 4 times in a row, or like three nights in a row, but that was at most. My memory has just been slipping a bit, and I've become a bit more moody. I think puberty might be playing a part, but I'm not sure.

[Danny_boi 16]

and I'm wondering if you guys think that could have messed up my brain development.
Note: I've stopped all drug use, the last time I've touched any drug was around July. I'm not planning on using any drugs for a good amount of time.

Well, the human body is quite unexplored especially the brain. The brain is horribly difficult to understand. The amount of narcotics that you have claimed the consume, may of caused serious damage or minimal damage to your body. Your body now will most likely and is probably slowing down this is due to the amount of cells lost and cannot be re-generated. The system may also have been damaged but not in the way that you may think. When I mean is that it will take longer for messages to go from your nerves to your brain. I cannot explain all the reasons in one post as well as I think I could. Still, all the things mentioned could minuscule and remote and probably doesn’t really matter. It on the topic that if you messed up, it is up to you to decide you were you and you know yourself best. I guess you want more information about this you can ask me, because I’m a hard time trying to simplify all this or maybe it’s simple enough already.

[MicroscopicDots]

You should be fine my friend, steer clear of that acid, spice and coke though, if you're going to use them, use them in a few more years to lower your risk of hindering your mental development. Especially the acid, that's from a personal experience when I was 16
where I took 3 1/2 hits of triple dipped blotter and was haunted by random visual and auditory hallucinations for the next year or so which led to sleeping and eating disorders. Of course everyone's different, after that my friends continued using acid with no problems.

My advice, wait a few more years, if substance use is something you're really interested in gain as much knowledge as you can now so you can use safely and get the most out of your experiences.

[Matt_2012]

damn son. went on a drug marathon eh. dw dude if you do decide to start back up again in the future maybe just stick to weed and only do it once a week, but i cant really talk coz i smoke weed more then once a week... but anyway good to know your clean! if i was in your position i wouldn't have been able to be clean for that long haha onya.

[Decim]

I personally would be a much more horrible and less insightful bratty snotnosed teenager without the trips and experiences drugs have given me.

But that's just me.

[Neverender]

Smoking weed at the ages of 12-14 in boys can cause detrimental deteroration of the connections of the synapses of the brain.

However, once you get 3 or 4 years older and you are more mature you can smoke as often as you wish, I would rather not have to explain myself for why on here unless challenged.

[MrJoel]

Wow I thought about smoking weed for sometime and I didnt.I think you need professional help

[Hungman]

So, like the title says, I'm 14 and I think I messed up hard. I've taken a bit of drugs since I was about 13 1/2. I started with weed, and I've smoked it quite a few times. The second drug I did was acid. I did one tab once, and two tabs another time, but I'm not sure if I got good acid because I didn't really trip that hard, the guy could have ripped me off. I then did diphenhydramine (I know it's retarded, I don't know what I was thinking. I really regret it and wish I hadn't done it) about 4 ish times, two times it didn't really work. I was hitting around 450MG dose, but I am also 5'4 and I weigh 115. I then did shrooms, probably a small amount, I couldn't really tell how much it was because I split with a friend (eyeballed). Between those trips I was smoking weed, and a bit of spice (terrible I know). I smoked spice maybe around 30-35 times in total and that's being generous. I didn't go hardcore while doing it either. I smoked weed around 40ish times, at max. I've also done around 2 bars of xanax, like two months spread in between each time, I've snorted one pill of oxy, and I've done codeine like twice. I'm scared right now that I could have possibly messed up my brain development... a lot. I'm not sure though, lately I've been really anxious and I'm not sure why, could be puberty but I really don't know. By anxious I mean panic attacks at school for no reason, trembling, and waking up at like 4 in the morning randomly. So, what do you guys think?


im just going to say it how it is bro
Ive done a lot of drugs to (coke acid shrooms weed MDMA pcp dxm n2o etc.. you get the point) but i only take ones i have researched the effects of and know are not dangerous if done in moderation. Depending on your mental state (any pre disposed illness/things that run in the family? ie depression schizophrenia ?) if you have a mental illness or the possibility of developing one then taking acid was a bad idea, otherwise LSD is a gods gift (favourite drug). One shouldnt take mind altering subtances if ones mind is already altered (ie mental illness). Regretting isnt going to do much what is done is done, the diphenhydramine probably wouldve had an effect on your mental well being as xanax and codeine, although you didnt really take a lot/often enough to have much drastic effects. If anything i would bet my left testicles that the panic attacks and anxiety you are having is no doubt caused by your use of spice, that shit is seriously bad for you even in small amounts (ironic coming from the guy who does all these other drugs but facts are facts) but just try not to worry about it because the passed has happened.

[applejackk]

Honestly, I think you're fine. When I was 14-16 years old I did ecstasy and cocaine all the time. Along with smoking weed, doing K and shrooms once in a while. For two years I was mainly doing ecstasy, and I gained such a tolerance that I was taking up to 18 pills a night and wasn't feeling high. Yes, I do realize I was an idiot and could have died. However I started getting really bad anxiety and panic attacks as well, because drugs mess with your hormones and in a kid going through puberty, it's A LOT worse. My family seriously thought I was bipolar for a while. After I got put into counselling, my doctor decided I needed anti-depressants to even out my chemical balance. I'm 19 in February and I've been off the anti-depressants since last September and I've been doing great! I quit drugs at 16, graduated on time and with honors and am going back to university for pre-vet.

The point I'm trying to make is, I did a lot more drugs (if you're talking amount) than you've listed, and with a bit of help I didn't get any long term mental issues. You'll be fine if you decide you want to be!

[Freiheit]

You'll be fine. I was in eight grade maybe and I use to snort oxy all the time. Drugs make you think stupid shit. You've no ideas hoe many times I had plan to rob a pharmacy it whatever before realizing how illogical it was. As far as intelligence, I seem okay. I'm pulling As and almost perfect SAT scores so you'll be fine. As for emotional side, you might be a little off there or maybe that's just me. I was depressed b4 drugs and after, I was more bi-polar/borderline? I'm not a psych. But yeah logical thinking still works fine and my memory is ok.

[Sordid Saint]

Well what you described is a baby next to what my list is, and I like to think I'm pretty normal still, but some people might not agree with that hahahahaha, just be careful with what you're doing and try not to end up like me :3