i give up...

[that-god-chick]

i dont know how much more of this is cant take. iv held on for as long as i can but nothing is getting better... im so sick of being known as the kid who self harms or the depressed kid... im sick of waking up every morning and just wishing the day would hurry up and end. im sick of everytime im crossing the road having to controll myself and stop myself from stepping out in front of a car. im sick of everytime time i look in the mirror i hate everything about the girl looking back at me i feel like i dont even know who she is anymore... i hate that my body is covered in scars that dont seem to fade... i hate that i cant go to the beach because im so scared of being judged and people will see my scars and my fat... im so sick of everything i cant take it anymore... sorry about this vent i just needed to get it out and no matter what i do no one around me can see whats happening to me and just think im attention seeking or dont care at all...

[Lost in the Echo]

Well I was severely depressed a few years ago, but honestly seeing a counselor or therapist would help, it helped me.

Also you seem like a pretty cool person to me, I can tell you are a good person, all you need is a little help and guidance, and a counselor/therapist seriously could help. And about you worrying about being judged by people, fuck them, you're not trying to impress them, live for you, not someone else, I saw you're profile picture and you don't look fat at all, in fact I think you look very beautiful.

Just continue to hold on, life will get better. I strongly suggest seeing a counselor/therapist. Like I said, you are very beautiful and I care about you. Stay strong, I know you can.

[that-god-chick]

aww thank you, but iv been talking with people for about 5 yrs now and it doesnt help im so over being upset and everything all the time i just want it t end.. i cant take it i would go to the doctors but there is no use cause its not going to help at all... but thank you it means alot

[Lost in the Echo]

Well i'm not a big fan of medication, but my counselor prescribed me this medication called "zoloft" I think, and it really helped my depression. I had to get off of it though because it made me have mood swings. But yeah, if you could be prescribed some Zoloft or any other good anti-depressant, it could really help you.

[that-god-chick]

yeah i dont know, iv gone before to the doctor but it didnt help and was just really awkard and im a shy person and dont like talking, let alone talking about myself... i dont even talk about stuff to my closest friends i couldnt tell someone i dont even really know something

[Lost in the Echo]

yeah i dont know, iv gone before to the doctor but it didnt help and was just really awkard and im a shy person and dont like talking, let alone talking about myself... i dont even talk about stuff to my closest friends i couldnt tell someone i dont even really know something

I know what you mean, i'm actually a very shy person too, but it would help a lot to see if you can get medication for depression. When I was on medication for depression I was also more outgoing and liked talking to people, but before that I was very shy and uncomfortable around people, with the anti-depressant medication I was on though I didn't feel that way anymore. If you just ask your doctor or counselor/therapist for some anti-depressant medication I think it would help you a lot.

[that-god-chick]

yeah maybe, but i dont want it to change my personality, i kinda like being that shy kid and the one who would rather listne to her music then join in and have to talk to people... (if u get what i mean) i just want to be happy and for things to go good for once

[Lost in the Echo]

yeah maybe, but i dont want it to change my personality, i kinda like being that shy kid and the one who would rather listne to her music then join in and have to talk to people... (if u get what i mean) i just want to be happy and for things to go good for once

Holy shit! I feel that way too! I don't really care about talking to people at school, I like being shy too. I kind of think the people at my school are stupid pricks, so I don't really like to socialize with them. Anti-depressants could make you feel happy though, they don't really change your personality, just get you in a better mood. I was a little reluctant about taking anti-depressants at first but they really helped me.

[that-god-chick]

haha yeah idk ill think about it...

[Matt_2012]

I remember when my ocd and depression got out of control i couldnt goto the toilet or leave my room without getting stressed out and basicly anything involving going out of my room andd just started to deteriate... got to the point where i couldnt go on webcam or post photos on facebook coz i was afraid due to ocd things.. wasnt motivated bad appetite etc the one thing that i found that helped was going to a ward BUT that is like last resort coz wards are bad news.

Not trying to make this thread about me just showing that there is always a way of getting better! :) stay strong you have alot to live for i dont know you but i would bet 100bux on it.


Sorry for shitty punctuation.. and if im rambling on just trying to explain.