It's Been So Long

[xXoblivionXx]

I'm not sure if anyone is going to read this but I just want to get this out of my head before it drives me crazy. Well I haven't cried for a long time but today, it just got those tears running. Anyway, I was with my family in the kitchen, as usual I was off to the side. But my dad looked at me and said that something was weird with my eyes. He came up to me and looked me in the eye and said that they were a tad discolored on the sides, he said that it's probably because of my eating habits. Then he just continued talking to my sister. The thing is, he hasn't looked me in the eye since I was in what? 5th grade? I mean and even now it was like he was looking right at me, but through me. He couldn't see the pain that I have been going through, he couldn't see anything, he couldn't see me.

[Pseudopyrif notropis]

he cant read mind through an eye though so i am very confused what is going on he wont know anyuthing unless you tell him you know

[Noirtier]

He either doesn't realize the pain you are in, or he's a jerk who doesn't care. But either way, it's not your fault hun. You aren't responsible for him or his actions--he's an adult and he makes his own decisions. I know it hurts for that to happen, but you need to know that you have people who love you here and will support you when things get bad. We'll always be here for you hun, no matter how hard things get :hug3: You can talk to me anytime you need to hun

[xXoblivionXx]

yeah, I guess. It's just, I don't know how to explain it.. it was like last time he looked me in the eyes I was a completely different person

[Mortal Coil]

And he still sees that person. So.. I'm guessing you feel like the person you've become is invisible? I'm sorry hun, he's got to be blind if he doesn't see the pain you're in. :hug:

[SmexiLexie510]

It can be hard to accept the changes people make in life, especially when faced with hard situations or emotions. It must be hard for you to feel this way with your Dad, because I've only had experience of feeling this way with people that I've moved on from, left behind, and then spent time with again. People change all the time, but that fact doesn't make it any easier to deal with, I know. It's strange and weird thing to go through, feeling like you can't quite explain it but you know it's there. VT is here to support you, so please keep posting and PM me if you would like