Buranri
September 23rd, 2012, 02:50 AM
This is more of a rant than an actual question. Just giving fair warning.
I suck at relationships... A lot. It pisses me off. I don't think I'm unattractive, I'm not fat. I'm in good shape. I don't necessarily talk a lot, but once I know someone a bit better I'm pretty funny. And still... I just can't meet anyone.
In the last 2 years, I've had a total of 2 relationships. Hell, I don't even know if they can be called that, since they lasted at most 3 weeks. I haven't even talked to a girl much since March. I hung out a few times this summer with a girl I marched with, but she lives in California so it's irrelevant. There's another girl I managed to fall for before I found she has a boyfriend in Georgia, so now I'm just fucked there. Overall... Nothing.
And yeah, I get all that. "enjoy high school, hang out with friends, you'll meet people in college." I fuckin hope I do, but that doesn't make this year any better. I'm the only person in my group of friends who's single, and it's been that way since October last year. Every party turns into a group of couples, to the point where I just don't bother hanging out unless we're doing stuff without their girlfriends (rarely). Being single sucks...
And I mean, I have a friend who literally hasn't gone a week without either dating or basically dating a girl since he moved here. I can't fucking figure out how you do that... Do I just not talk enough? At this point I honestly just want a girlfriend, period. Fuck all that "wait for the right person" shit, or doesn't help when you're the 3rd wheel of life. And I haven't met a new girl in months, since my school is tiny. Doesn't help that I'm really involved in band and music, which is an automatic no for most girls at my school.
I suck at relationships... A lot. It pisses me off. I don't think I'm unattractive, I'm not fat. I'm in good shape. I don't necessarily talk a lot, but once I know someone a bit better I'm pretty funny. And still... I just can't meet anyone.
In the last 2 years, I've had a total of 2 relationships. Hell, I don't even know if they can be called that, since they lasted at most 3 weeks. I haven't even talked to a girl much since March. I hung out a few times this summer with a girl I marched with, but she lives in California so it's irrelevant. There's another girl I managed to fall for before I found she has a boyfriend in Georgia, so now I'm just fucked there. Overall... Nothing.
And yeah, I get all that. "enjoy high school, hang out with friends, you'll meet people in college." I fuckin hope I do, but that doesn't make this year any better. I'm the only person in my group of friends who's single, and it's been that way since October last year. Every party turns into a group of couples, to the point where I just don't bother hanging out unless we're doing stuff without their girlfriends (rarely). Being single sucks...
And I mean, I have a friend who literally hasn't gone a week without either dating or basically dating a girl since he moved here. I can't fucking figure out how you do that... Do I just not talk enough? At this point I honestly just want a girlfriend, period. Fuck all that "wait for the right person" shit, or doesn't help when you're the 3rd wheel of life. And I haven't met a new girl in months, since my school is tiny. Doesn't help that I'm really involved in band and music, which is an automatic no for most girls at my school.