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edsheeran
September 21st, 2012, 07:30 PM
I've been 48 days free of cutting but I've been struggling with who I am without my eating disorder and self-harm. Before I was a cutter and that was my identity. Now, without it, I don't know who I am. Does anyone relate?

Noirtier
September 21st, 2012, 07:43 PM
I can certainly relate, having struggled greatly--and still--with both self harm and an eating disorder. I still struggle with it, but hun, you've gone so long without it. I know it feels like you don't even know yourself anymore. But this is your shot at a second chance, your chance to change who you are, to become who you always wanted to be. At the point you're at now, you can choose what path to follow, and who to become. You can now build your own life, and build yourself, who you hang around and trust, and the people you love. And then, hun, then you will find who you are. I believe in you, that you can do it--it's hard, but you're strong, you've proven that by going so long without self harm. If you ever need anything, we're all here to help on VT. This is a community, and we support you all the way :)

edsheeran
September 21st, 2012, 07:53 PM
Thank you! (:

emanual
September 21st, 2012, 08:16 PM
no im sorry i cant relate

CyanideGoodnight
September 21st, 2012, 09:03 PM
You'll find yourself eventually.

It's hard and sometimes crippling not knowing who you are or what your place is, but it's okay. We're teenagers. We aren't really SUPPOSED to know what we wanna do for the rest of our lives. The great thing is we're all figuring it out along the way.

You are you. You are a recovering, strong person, who will get through both the cutting and eating disorder.

Me, I'm recovering from self harm, and I'm one year done with cutting (but god do those urges tempt me...) and I nearly developed (but not quite, thank god) an eating disorder. It's hard, but you have us, and we'll be here to support you as we find our way.

I'm proud you're trying to stop, and 48 days is fantastic :)

bigfoot
September 21st, 2012, 10:34 PM
yes i can relate and i know that it is NOT easy at all to quit. Without it you are still you. And an even better you.

BUT YOU ARE DOING GREAT!!! Very proud right here :)

edsheeran
September 22nd, 2012, 12:29 AM
Thanks everyone<3 xx