Just not quite... with it.

[Danny.Robertson]

From time to time I feel like my thoughts are not my own. I'm constantly looking around corners believing that the truth is being hidden from me, from us all, by our brains. I feel like this constant paranoia is eating away at my understanding and knowledge of what is true. I feel like. I feel like I need help and my parents won't let me go and see someone because it endangers 'my chance of getting a good job in the future'. From time to time I just want a break from everything, this world and all, although I got over my suicidal mindset years ago. I just need to find why, what,how. And yet, I can't find this information. I mean I've even taken up meditation to try and help but still... I'm sorry if I rambled and wasted your time for reading this.

[SmexiLexie510]

First thing's first- never think you're wasting time by posting here, we want to help.

I think what you're describing is a classic case a paranoia which can sometimes link to paranoia personality disorder. You say your parents won't let you go to a psychiatrist, are you old enough to go to a therapist yourself, your decision etc?

You sound as if you need help to talk things through in your own head as well. Always here if you need anything, PM me :)