Blowing off some steam

[maramara]

Waking up in the morning is getting increasingly harder to do. My body is so heavy. I'm angry all the time, and depression wraps itself around me like a symbiotic parasite. It seems as though it will never leave me. When my "friends" validate my worthlessness and I become even more invisible, it just numbs me further. I am hollow. I am weak. I am empty. I'm tired, so tired of everything. I need a reason to stay in this world, and I keep looking for one.
Yesterday I was asked, "What makes you happy?"
I responded, "Besides the self-destructive stuff?"
She, "Yeah."
I, "Nothing."
It's all so pointless. My mind is like sailors jumping a sinking ship. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up..

[Noirtier]

I know how it is. Not only has this been me before, but it's been me lately. My anger threatens to overwhelm me, depression suffocates me 24/7, friends hurt and betray me making me feel worthless, invisible. Family treats me like dirt. I know how you feel. A lot of people here do. We are here for you though, please know that. We are ALWAYS here for you. To help you when you need it, and to care about you. When happiness becomes fleeting, and things don't make you happy anymore, you need to find that thing that does. I know it's hard, but you need to find that thing that makes you happy. YOU can take control of your own life now. Find something that you think will make you happy, and make that a goal. Then, work towards achieving that goal. We're here for you when you stumble and fall hun, and every time in between.

[maramara]

Thank you so much. I'm just so tired. I don't know how much longer I can keep fooling myself. I don't want to give up, but going on is more than I can take.