Being Alone

[HealingScars]

So lately I have been wanting to be away from everyone. And either just be completely by myself or with my boyfriend. But it seems like everyone looks at me funny because of it. Why? Is it so wrong that I just don't want to be social and just want to think and be alone. Being alone is something I am used to. It is something I used to do all the time. Most of my time spent was in my room. Now it is just spent mostly in my boyfriends room because I don't feel like being around everyone else. Am I crazy for wanting to go to work with him? His mom thinks I am. Everyone else probably thinks I am. He doesn't mind it but he also thinks its weird. So am I crazy? Or is the want to be alone normal? I apologize to the entire fucking universe if I am not the social person everyone(boyfriends family) wants me to be. I've never been a very social person and if I am it is because I am comfortable around those people. But with my boyfriends friend and girlfriend here I don't want to be around them. Please let me know what you all think. It would be a big help.

[emanual]

So well maybe your friends want to hang out with you and you just ignore them is why people look at you funny. Are you like anxious about being in crowds or something?

[HealingScars]

All the friends I have live far away. And, the ones I have near my boyfriends house hardly want to hang out. When we all do I am perfectly fine hanging out.

[HealingScars]

It is just lately I don't want to be around anyone.

[emanual]

ok are you on period? are you anxious or scared someones going say something? you just dont feel like being around people? there must be reason?

[HealingScars]

Should be starting soon. Not scared about anyone saying anything.
I just don't want to be around people. Its like this weird feeling. Where when you are around people it feels as if they can see everything that is going on. Having so much on my plate doesn't help at all either. Worrying bout going to school online, finding a job, keeping my boyfriend happy, keeping his family happy, finding time to go see my family, worrying about my mom and grandma. I just can't handle it all right now. Its just getting to be to much. And, no one seems to understand that

[Nathan Numberless]

It's okay. I'm not a very social person either, you shouldn't have to be treated differently because of it. I would rather spend time alone then with anybody else. I readily dream of what it would be like to be the only person on earth. It doesn't make you bad or anti-social or wrong. You're just a different kind of person. Like alot of us.

[Daracon]

I have been that way since I can remember, I love being alone and prefer it to being around other people, mainly because I generally hate most people, it just the way you are. :)

[HealingScars]

So I am not crazy?