ackmedsgirl666
September 18th, 2012, 08:40 PM
its been 3 months since i last talked to marc(my f..at...he..r
i say it that way because well he disowned me
i miss him so much. he just wont talk to me and its not fair
hes chosen to love his 2 other kids that he had with his wife over me
i fear its gonna be ALONG time before i talk to him again and i have a feeling that the next time i see marc will be when my siblings are teenager
right now theyre 11 and 8
it sickens me
i wont be there when my sister has her first period or when my brother gets his first girlfriend. fuck i even miss my evil stepmother
i wanna talk to him so badly. hes not happy with me for anything i have done in the past. he told me he doesnt wanna speak to me until i either have a job, im in college, or i dump my bf. i have tried 2 different jobs and he still wasnt proud.. like wtf more do i do
what do i do
i feel im a falure at life and when my boyfriend went away for the week to see his family i tried to attempt suicide
i dont want this shit anymore
how do i deal with this?
i say it that way because well he disowned me
i miss him so much. he just wont talk to me and its not fair
hes chosen to love his 2 other kids that he had with his wife over me
i fear its gonna be ALONG time before i talk to him again and i have a feeling that the next time i see marc will be when my siblings are teenager
right now theyre 11 and 8
it sickens me
i wont be there when my sister has her first period or when my brother gets his first girlfriend. fuck i even miss my evil stepmother
i wanna talk to him so badly. hes not happy with me for anything i have done in the past. he told me he doesnt wanna speak to me until i either have a job, im in college, or i dump my bf. i have tried 2 different jobs and he still wasnt proud.. like wtf more do i do
what do i do
i feel im a falure at life and when my boyfriend went away for the week to see his family i tried to attempt suicide
i dont want this shit anymore
how do i deal with this?