New to cutting

[Haunted]

I started cutting about a week ago because my friend is doing something wrong. I told him he should stop, tried to convince him it wasn't worth it but he hasn't stopped. So I started cutting. I want to become worse than he is so he knows what it's like to watch your best friend do things you know are wrong. But the thing is, now that I've started cutting, it's not just for him anymore. I do it for me now because I have had my own feelings of worthlessness, shame, imperfection, and guilt. They are resurfacing now and so I cut for me, because of my feelings and because I hate watching him go down that path.

I don't cut very deep (yet) but I like cutting. I've cut more than 30 times since I started a week ago. So my question is, should I stop before it's harder? Stop before the cuts get worse? What do I do?

[bigfoot]

yes the sooner you stop the easier it is. it solves nothing. it just creates more problems. I feel like an addict every day, have ugly scars, and just think about nothing but cutting myself. please stop now before it gets worse. :hug:

the best-bigfoot

[Haunted]

But really, I already don't want to stop. I like the depression it makes me "happy" in a sick way. I don't really like being happy it's too cheerful my happiness comes from pain, it's been that way since before cutting. Cutting just makes it a better feeling.

[that-god-chick]

yes my adice that i wish someone gave me when i first started is to stop now and talk to someone about what u r feeling and whats going on with ur friend...

trust me u dont want to end up like me after doing it for 4 years and now not being able to stop and having a body covered in scars. its not a good thing, please stop if not for urself but for everyone around you.

[XxNINJAxX]

You should stop before it gets out of hand when I first started I had about the same amount as you do but in a months time you will have over a hundred on your arm in a span of a week so a encourage you to stop

[Mortal Coil]

I want to become worse than he is so he knows what it's like

Do you have any idea what you're saying? Of all the poor reasons to self harm, treating it as a competition and proving a point to someone really top the list. I understand that your reasons have changed slightly, but yes, you should stop cutting ASAP. It sucks you in so quickly. You'll fall hard if you don't pull yourself out now. Good luck.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Stop. Now. Before it gets worse. You've only been doing it a week it will be alot easier to stop. It really isn't worth going down the path that you are going down.

From my experience, you will only end up hurting the ones around you, losing friends, feeling lost, isolated, alone. You'll end up hating yourself, feeling self conscious, flinching away when ever someone should touch your scars/cuts. It really isn't worth it. I wouldn't even wish it upon the person that I hate most.

What ever you cut with - throw it all away. That way you wont be tempted. 3-4 years down the line I wish that I had, had someone tell me where I would be now, and I know for a fact that I would've put everything down and thrown it all in the bin and stopped.

I'm sure everyone here will agree that it really isn't worth it in the long run. Yeah, you get the short, 5 minute, release but after that, no it's not worth it.

[Cicero]

Stop immediately. The newer you are, the easier it is. Ive cut myself once, and whenever their is an overflow of emption, for some reason I always think of cutting. Please stop now, the longer you go cutting yourself, the more you cut, and the deeper you go. Don't worry about your friend to the point of cutting yourself, you cannot control what your friend does. So please, for the sake of yourself. Stop cutting, and if needed get help. Get better :)

[ArtistInNeed]

I'm sorry you started cutting, its a hard habit to break. I suggest you stop as soon as you can, please don't make it a problem. Trust me, I've been cutting since 4th grade, ive been graduated from high school for 3 years now and I still can't stop. For you health and sanity please stop :(

[Haunted]

"Why should I care if they hurt you?
Somehow it matters more to me
Than if I were hurting myself"
~Give Unto Me, Evanescence

I feel like that.

[Drew5]

So wait, why did the rest of you start? I never heard of cutting until this site.

I'm trying to figure it out. You guys cut because it feels good? Or feels good eventually? When i've accidently cut myself it has never felt good or like something I'd want to do again. So why do people do it? The OP said 30 cuts. that's like a life time worth of cuts!

[Haunted]

This is what someone here at VT said: "Self harm is often seen as a cry for help, a ploy to gain attention or as manipulation. However more often than not self harm is a very private and hidden behavior that does not involve anyone else. Some people will take great care in hiding their injuries and scars through shame, embarrassment or fear. They may conceal injuries under clothing, jewelery or make up excuses and explanations. A large number of people who self harm treat their wounds themselves at home rather than seeking medical help. Other individuals who do let people know about their self harm may do this as they have no other way to communicate how they are feeling. Self harm for these individuals may be a cry for help. If someone goes to these extremes it is clear that they are in distress. Though there may be people that do it for attention, many do not, and those who are looking for the attention shows that they are actually wanting help, someone to notice and someone to care."

We cut because it is a discretion from emotional pain. It is a way to cope with feelings of loneliness, no self worth, self hatred, abandonment, and more similar feelings. However, often times self harmers wish we did not, and hate ourselves more for it. We long to quit because it is an addiction that consumes us.

[endless_secrets]

Well, it's up to you. you are only hurting yourself physically by cutting, and it doesn't matter if it leaves scars. everything else before vanity. then again, i am a sick girl who cuts. no one even notices. if you don't want to listen to me, that's okay. i'm just giving you my opinion.

[StoppingTime]

Please do not post in threads which have been inactive for over two months from the time of the last post. :locked: