Pictob_x
September 16th, 2012, 03:16 PM
So I've been wondering for a while if I could be plural...
I have little recollection of my childhood, but I remember when was about 7 or 8 I used to insist to be called by other names. I would INSIST that I had no idea who Shauna (my real name) was, and I genuinely believed it. I would scream and cry until whoever I was talking to referred to me as the name I had chosen at that time. I am certain that I have had many of these 'alters', however the only one I can clearly remember is Colleen (who was a car, no joke...), and I have very, very vague memories of believing myself to be a boy, can't remember the name.
After a few years of being 'myself', this has started to come back, only in a rather different way. I have various 'characters' in my head, and although I don't switch personalities like I used to, I talk to them occasionally. They each have their own different interests, ages ect. and they do genuinely feel like real people. I have even created separate tumblr blogs for each of them.
I did once consider Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personality Disorder) since I do also have other dissociative symptoms such as depersonalisation, but I have no history of severe trauma however I have been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, and due to that I have suffered bullying and was very lonely for the first half of my life.
I have recently found out about plurality (multiple personalities without trauma), and I was wondering if this is what I could be going through?
I know I am only 14 and this could well be a phase, but the thought of losing/integrating with my characters/alters seriously distresses me (and them).
So yeah... help?
I have little recollection of my childhood, but I remember when was about 7 or 8 I used to insist to be called by other names. I would INSIST that I had no idea who Shauna (my real name) was, and I genuinely believed it. I would scream and cry until whoever I was talking to referred to me as the name I had chosen at that time. I am certain that I have had many of these 'alters', however the only one I can clearly remember is Colleen (who was a car, no joke...), and I have very, very vague memories of believing myself to be a boy, can't remember the name.
After a few years of being 'myself', this has started to come back, only in a rather different way. I have various 'characters' in my head, and although I don't switch personalities like I used to, I talk to them occasionally. They each have their own different interests, ages ect. and they do genuinely feel like real people. I have even created separate tumblr blogs for each of them.
I did once consider Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personality Disorder) since I do also have other dissociative symptoms such as depersonalisation, but I have no history of severe trauma however I have been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, and due to that I have suffered bullying and was very lonely for the first half of my life.
I have recently found out about plurality (multiple personalities without trauma), and I was wondering if this is what I could be going through?
I know I am only 14 and this could well be a phase, but the thought of losing/integrating with my characters/alters seriously distresses me (and them).
So yeah... help?