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Pictob_x
September 16th, 2012, 03:16 PM
So I've been wondering for a while if I could be plural...

I have little recollection of my childhood, but I remember when was about 7 or 8 I used to insist to be called by other names. I would INSIST that I had no idea who Shauna (my real name) was, and I genuinely believed it. I would scream and cry until whoever I was talking to referred to me as the name I had chosen at that time. I am certain that I have had many of these 'alters', however the only one I can clearly remember is Colleen (who was a car, no joke...), and I have very, very vague memories of believing myself to be a boy, can't remember the name.

After a few years of being 'myself', this has started to come back, only in a rather different way. I have various 'characters' in my head, and although I don't switch personalities like I used to, I talk to them occasionally. They each have their own different interests, ages ect. and they do genuinely feel like real people. I have even created separate tumblr blogs for each of them.

I did once consider Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personality Disorder) since I do also have other dissociative symptoms such as depersonalisation, but I have no history of severe trauma however I have been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, and due to that I have suffered bullying and was very lonely for the first half of my life.
I have recently found out about plurality (multiple personalities without trauma), and I was wondering if this is what I could be going through?
I know I am only 14 and this could well be a phase, but the thought of losing/integrating with my characters/alters seriously distresses me (and them).

So yeah... help?

SosbanFach
September 16th, 2012, 04:42 PM
It doesn't sound like just 'a phase' to me. Through the way you're describing it, what you're suggesting is certainly a possibility. You may find it worthwhile speaking to a psychologist about these 'symptoms', for want of a better word.

donk
September 16th, 2012, 04:55 PM
'Identity Crisis' is quite common though to the person who is suffering from it - it might seem that you are The only One. Some of us pass through this and get over it - you will too - unless you possibly have a mental problem as well - try not to think about it and it will go away of its own accord - like a wart:)

Pictob_x
September 17th, 2012, 02:06 PM
Thanks guys. Next time I have an appointment with my psychiatrist I will bring up the issue.

However, last night I actually dissociated. I remember which 'character' I became (my male character, Heron) but not what I was saying. My vision went blurry and I started to switch back to my own personality, but soon after my head started to hurt and I felt the character trying to regain control.
I woke up this morning feeling completely detached, and had a panic attack. I can't remember any dreams I may have had either.
I know for a fact that I wasn't dreaming as I found a recording on my phone of Heron speaking. He was talking about how he hates sharing a body with 4 females (myself and my 3 other characters), and he mentioned that when he's taking control of the body it's as if I am the imaginary friend, and considers me a hypocrite for calling him imaginary.

I'm now seriously scared that I may actually be plural/multiple. Anyone care to explain why I may have switched last night? :/