someone please help

[98989]

Ever since i can remember my dad has had extreme back porblems and recently he got even worse injured and i cant even talk to him hes in so much pian and i never have really talked to him much in my whole life even though everyday he tells me he loves me i just wanna talk to him so fuckin bad i have so many things to tell him but i cant because hes in to much pain to even focus.lately its been taking its toll every night i cry and try my best to be happy everday but its getting hard.My family wouldnt understand if i told them......Im so depressed.Ive moved away from the only place ive ever loved and the only place i will ever be happy but my parents would never consider moving back,i cant talk to my dad even though i see him everyday i just wish i could have 1 wish in the world and that would be maby to tell him what i did in school today,how much i love him but i never will be able to.Ive been thinking of suicide lately......alot but when i think deeply of it,it makes me happy inside.But i cant do that because of the impact on the people i love.I know my dad is there and i know he loves me but i cant remeber 1 time we even played catch or anthing like that.Plz help me im just need to some advice im just sick of feeling like this.

[trn19]

Hello 98989, I'm trn19 i send you a private message a few days ago, did you recieve it? Well, I can tell you that suicide is something I've been thnking a lot about for a long time, but I won't do it because of the same reason you listed in your post. Let me tell you that you can have a friend in me if you want. You can PM any time you want and I will answer to you for sure. You can talk to me about anything, just ask, really. If you need anything I'm here for you.

[thesphinx]

When I read your post it broke my heart. I am in a similar situation with my uncle. he's recently been put in a wheel chair, I can relate to the pain you feel.
I'm so sorry about your dad. must be hard, Trust me you dont want to commit suicide I've been there you don't want to go there, I would suggest talking to a counselor psychologist trusted adult. Talk about your feelings it can help a lot. I am seeing a counselor right now and it can really help but im here if you need anything please pm me if you do.
-thesphinx

[Gabriel Y.]

Your story breaks my heart :*( I feel so bad for you! Honestly I cant even think of advice to give you except that well... Look. I have considered suicide before. The one reason you should not and why i didnt, is because why end your life? Because life seems bad? Well even if it seems horrible, death will not relieve it. And remember, as i assume you are still living at home, those that love you will always be there. Your dad WILL get better. Im half an atheist, but i still believe that love will always persist through pain. Your dad knows you love him. Just seeing your thoughts, I know that he knows. He knows that you are probably depressed that you cannot talk to him. He is trying his best to get better, and as long as you are always there for him, there is nothing at all stopping him from getting better. There is always someone to live for and right now that is your dad. As long as you believe that, everything will turn out fine. If you ever need someone to talk to, talk to me. I have dealt with a lot in my life (nothing close to this though) but i can help you. Please please please I cannot beg you enough, talk to people. Talk to me. Talk to someone because even if your dad cannot be the person to talk to all of the time, for the time being, other people can help. *hug* you seem like such a nice kid and I know you will make everyone happy no matter what you say. Honestly I dont know how to personal message on this so... well if you want to talk, i do have a facebook (never go on it, but for you I will go on it as much as possible). My name is Gabe Yayac. Please talk to me or if not, find someone to talk to about everything until your dad gets better.

[Eclipse]

I'm so sorry I feel so bad for you but I will shutup now because I know that sympathy aint worth damn thing.
Anyway, I know its hard being moved away from a place you love, I was only in a town I loved for a week and started balling cause we had to leave. But enough about me. About the suicide thing, don't do it. Think of all the people that love you. I thought about suicide, and take a look at my arm. And I'm pretty sure your dad knows you love him. I know I give crappy advice, but you know.