mondays the day i end it all

[that-god-chick]

so for the past week all i can think about is ending it all, i cant wait for the day when im not here anymore and can finaly have no more pain, to feel nothing. so iv decided mondays the day that will happen either during school or after school ill do it and that will be it. the funny thing is the school counsellor and school chaplian knows that iv been thinking but no one has done anything about it ha just as i knew no one really fucking cares, so bye everyone on here this is one of the last times ill be on here...

[StoneColdNicky]

You shouldn't. Things will start to look better. Winter is over, after all.

[that-god-chick]

things will not get better its just been getting worst scene i was in grade 8, im now in grade 11, i cant take it anymore. no one cares and no one understands.

[Rayquaza]

Chloe, If I could just have a couple of minutes of your time, just please read this.

I know that being a teen can be really stressful, heck, I'm one myself. But I really don't want to see someone end their life because of it. I don't want you to end your life, from your paragraph I can immediately tell you are a nice girl who just wants some attention, and everyone here at VT will give it to you, it takes time to heal and I know it can be really hard, I've been through it myself. Contemplating whether or not to just take the 'easy way' out. But then I realized how much stress I'd put on my parents shoulders, my friends shoulders and worst of all probably my brother. Imagine that. Losing a brother. Not even by accident.

I really want you to tell someone, cause I know there are people out there such as myself that care about you and don't want you to go. Things WILL get better. Grade 8 to Grade 11 are usually bad years for many people anyway. Ending your life like this means you'll never know how it feels like to raise a child, have a job, find someone you care about. It's all part of the human experience, and we've just got to live with it. Just please don't do this. I care and I understand. You can talk to me anytime.

[that-god-chick]

no trust me iv been bullied ever day of my life, moving school didnt help, my family makes fun of me 24-7 and nothing makes me happy. iv told the school counsellor and the school chaplian none of them give a shit.
im not looking for attention i just want the pain to stop...
i cant take it anymore this is happening no matter what...

[Professional Russian]

woah woah woah. dont do it. its not the right thing to do. you may think it is but it isnt. PLease dont do we need you here from these expierences you can help others with the same problem

[Lost in the Echo]

Please don't do it! I was in almost in the exact same position you are in now a few years ago, but its true that life does get better. I know there has to be at least one thing or person on earth you care about enough to not take your own life. Also I think that pain and missery is a lot better than death. If god exists then you would burn in hell for eternity for killing yourself, even if he doesn't your body will rot end the ground and you will lose everything either way. There has to be things in life that make you happy, do those things. Please just don't kill yourself, there has to be at the very least one person in your family that cares about you. I know everybody on here cares about you. Don't kill yourself please, it won't make anything better. If you continue to live I promise that sooner or later you will find happiness (:.

[Thepolice5291]

Chole, please don't do, I live in Australia, if I had a job and money I would seriously fly over to Where you live and help you out, people care, I care, VT cares

[West Coast Sheriff]

Please don't just try to remember it will get better and think of your family who would miss you so much. We're all here to help,

[StephanieSanders]

We all have days and even years feeling like that, ive been through it, and it got better when i changed school and got some other friends. Hang in there sweetie, VT got lots of friends who wants you to have a great time in a great life. :*

[project_icarus]

Chloe, tomorrow is Monday. I know that if you're really serious, and you've planned it, you probably will try and go through with it. I don't want anything but the best for you, I just want you to try this. When Monday comes and you think it's time, just stop. Say to yourself, "I will not attempt to take my life until at least..." And make it reasonable. Make it something you're going to stick to, just postpone it. Whether you stop yourself for twenty minutes, two hours, a day, a week, or however long you decide - it's a start.
Make sure to distract yourself during that period, with video games, music, the internet, be creative, use VT! Keep yourself preoccupied.

Trust me, from what you describe your situation to be like, I think we can relate. Having a family like that, it sucks, to say the least. I know it's hard, but you need to find a way to block them out. Whether that means locking yourself in your room with your music blaring, or just going out. Just going out, go for a jog/walk/run/wander or whatever you feel like doing - away from them, if they're a problem!

With the bullying, I can relate to that also. It's a huge disappointment when the school does fuck all to prevent it. Or even when they try, but they just can't stop it. That's just stupid, low, disgusting people that take pleasure in making you feel like shit. You need to understand that these people don't know what they're on about.

You will get through this. You just need to give it more time! It could take much, much longer than this. But things will work out. You just need to give them the chance to work out.

I wish you the best of luck.
Please, stay safe.

[TheBigUnit]

She hasn't replied in over 24 hours, trust me babe don't do wat ur planning on doing

[bigfoot]

please don't do it!! I care!! I'm here!! just please stay alive. everyone here cares and would like to help, just please don't do it. i hope for the best :hug: -bigfoot

[Sleepy Raisin]

Everyone here cares for you!! There are other ways to escape what youre going through! Although you say no one cares if you take your own life tons of people are going to cry, or feel something. You need to talk sonsomeone other than the counselors, they probably think youre just faking it to get attention. You need to tell your family members, or a friend! Please, please please pleeeaassee dont do this!! I cant say i know whatre your going through but if you do this, and im begging you not to, you'll never get to do anything that life has in store for you! School is just one horrible step towards living, but promise you'll stick through! Im sure yu've got to be close to being the age where you can live on your own.. That could help get away from family.... Dont do this, Chloe, please.

[that-god-chick]

u guys dont even know me how could u care about me and even if u did know me u wouldnt care about me no one does. i changed the day to thursday and now know when and how im going to do it.

[project_icarus]

Although we don't necessarily know you all to well, at the moment we care for you as a human, and as somebody going through tough times. And me personally, I know what it's like.

Thank you for putting it off until Thursday, that is a start. We will see what happens then.

[StoneColdNicky]

u guys dont even know me how could u care about me and even if u did know me u wouldnt care about me no one does. i changed the day to thursday and now know when and how im going to do it.

It's true what you've said. We don't really know you. But there is a sense of community in this site that is unlike anything I've ever experienced. Before I used this site, I never really had anyone who I knew online who I didn't know in real life. I never knew I could care about someone who I never met or knew about. I guess it taught me something.

Even if we don't know you in person, I came onto this site to see if you replied, and spent the day hoping you would, because since I first read your message I've been thinking about you, and just hoping to see a reply.

[Mortal Coil]

You're one hundred percent right. We don't know you. But all that means is that our caring for you has nothing to do with our relationship to you. We want you to live, not because you're the only one whose maths homework we can copy or because we'll miss your constant punning in chat, but because you deserve to live and have a reason to. The people in this world can be good. You do have a future.
Besides, I think we both know that if you truly wanted to die, you would have just ended it. Your posting in here shows that you really just want to be saved. And nobody here blames you for that.

[TheBigUnit]

u guys dont even know me how could u care about me and even if u did know me u wouldnt care about me no one does. i changed the day to thursday and now know when and how im going to do it.

So why are you doing this again? The world is hurting u so ur deciding to hurt urself? What do u gain? When someone our age dies sure people will weep and be sad bc its a tragedy, but what legacy do u leave behind? You never had children to raise nor grandchildren, u never entered the work force earning a living, u kno one of the past prime ministers of united kingdom thought of suicide when he was a teen, he overcame and became one of the best leaders of mankind, where is the legacy u leave behind? As far as we kno maybe u or ur your children will find the cure for cancer,

Worst of all if u commit suicide now, u won't go to college aka the most fun expirence of ur life

[Matt_2012]

Please don't do it! theres so much to live for even though it feels like everything just keeps going downhill even when you try. it really does get better you just need to sit tight it'll be all worth it there are so many people that care about you.

[Thepolice5291]

u guys dont even know me how could u care about me and even if u did know me u wouldnt care about me no one does. i changed the day to thursday and now know when and how im going to do it.

Hey, I Don't Know you, But If I had the chance to get to know you I would, I Care about you because I don't want another life lost due to bullying there already has been many, and although my video only got 131 views I Know it would have helped at-least 1 person
(Link incase you wanted to see it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ju4ijZB4w_0 )

YOU Matter, If you weren't in this world alot would be different

Feel free to talk to me, Pm me/Skype/Fb, Hey i will even Call you or give you my number, YOU matter

[Professional Russian]

u guys dont even know me how could u care about me and even if u did know me u wouldnt care about me no one does. i changed the day to thursday and now know when and how im going to do it.

We are here for a reason. we are here to help. We are complete strangers but we do care. we dont want to do it. although it feels as if no one cares. theres nothing for in life. you're wrong. later in life or even now you can look back at this and help people with the same problem as you. we dont want you to hurt your self. please dont do it.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

That-God-Chick... Look around you! There is 2 pages of people telling you they truly care about you, and they do and they seriously dont want you to do this! Please dont do it.

[Heavyrain4life]

Its not worth it. Everything people ever did for you would be a waste. And think of your family. You would crush them. And regardless of what you think, it will get better, and there are people there who love and support you. Everyone has the capability to do great things. At least postpone until October, and see professional help. I'm not talking about some half-assed school counselor, but a real person, with real experience. There is so much left to live for. Just don't do it.

[Wayne92]

Chloe, we don't know you but we all want you to live is mainly based on the fact that you are a person who is hurting a great deal and deserves to live. Not based on social status, looks or other meaningless things. Plus, i think we all would like to get to know you for who you are, whether it's on here or in real life.
I know your pain, that is also why I care. I was bullied and ignored at school, abandoned by family and abused at home. I thought things would never get better for me, I even thought God himself was out to get me. I attempted suicide twice and I regret it and don't want anyone else to do the same. I kept fighting and life started to turn around and I know it will for you too. Having people to turn to when times are tough makes a big difference and I am willing to be here for you and I'm sure everyone else feels the same way.
Just keep fighting, you can do, we all know you can and are hear for you whenever you need us. Message me if you want to talk. IT WILL GET BETTER, I promise.:hug:

[LikeAJay]

Bound to happen at some point. You are born dying.I rather die when I'm in my 30 or 40.life is crap.And yeah

[arrggg]

ITS COOL COME LIVE WITH HAYDEN YOU ALL CAN JUST NO KILLY KILLY OK BTW im only 15 so i dont have my own house but hayyy still come :D

[blumenthal]

think about it like this. you've endured 3 years of bullshit already. you are in grade 11, that means you only have to endure one more year. you've been so strong to endure all those years, but listen, after highschool IT'S ALL OVER.

the assholes in your school who are going to college will go to college and realize how, in a bigger and more diverse environment, they are absolutely not special and they will probably go through something similar as to what you're going through now.

the people who are different (smarter, braver, more interesting, etc people like that (and probably like you) tend to get bullied in highschool) - if they go to college they'll realize how many others like them there actually are in the world, make good friendships and build confidence and become the types of people who are solid, creative, interesting, and way cooler than those bullies... and often their strength is BECAUSE they were bullied in highschool.

if you don't go to college, then all the social bullshit will just straight up be OVER. if you live in a small town, you can move to a city where there are so many amazing different types of people.

the best part about getting older, is how less much petty shit like shallow highschool survival tactics matter at all. and how much less it matters what people think about you, and how much more confident you become with yourself to be able to face and confront desperate, insecure and shallow people like your bullies.

they bully you because they don't know how else to survive highschool. they will get theirs. killing yourself will only tell them that they've won, and will only stop you from starting to live your REAL life, the one after highschool.

[PonY]

no trust me iv been bullied ever day of my life, moving school didnt help, my family makes fun of me 24-7 and nothing makes me happy. iv told the school counsellor and the school chaplian none of them give a shit.
im not looking for attention i just want the pain to stop...
i cant take it anymore this is happening no matter what...

I know exactly how you feel. I have been bullied since grade one.
No one cared how I felt, how they hurt me.
Even though those people were hurting me, and not caring how I felt. I knew that eventually, when I didn't have to walk into that school, or walk down the street of this town anymore I will be in better place.
So I made something of myself, got outta dodge, made a life for myself.
Now I can proudly come back to this shitty little town and walk into a store or restaurant proud because I showed them all that I am stronger than they are. Most of the people who bullied me are working at coffee shops, gas stations, and not going anywhere. Here I am owning my own business, working hard, making a life for myself how I want it. I know that these people are idiots and I will show them who I can be.


IF you feel that nothing is going to change well you are wrong. They do, and I understand how you feel. Things will come to be better in time.

I am sorry you are having these problems, I really wish that younger generations didn't have to go through what I did and many others did.

Look to the future, only a little ways to go and you get to show them how far you made it. I'm proud of you for making it as far as you did. Everyone here will be proud of you for making it all the way.

[ArsenicCatNip]

I can say from experience that after High School you won't care about what happened! You have your whole life ahead of you. Don't get so caught up and forget that. Just remember you have family and friends who love and care about you.